CECILY55's Oct 2009 CalorieKing Blog

Beating Writer's Block

Saturday, October 24th 2009

3. I don't have to work all that hard on this project, but I do need to work on it. Tomorrow is Saturday and I am going to spend 240 minutes writing on this thing. Schedule will be:
>>>get up at 4, coffee, dress, eat breakfast, kitty litter
>>>write 5:30 - 6:30. Discuss on-site audit of plant and CPR. Include discussion of buildings owned and leased. Used and useful. Exhibit?
>>>break 6:30 - 7. Stretch, KB exercises.
>>>write 7 - 8....

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Writer's Block

Friday, October 23rd 2009

Well, I've got it--not a doubt in my mind. But I MUST get on with this Fremont audit project. So what is the problem. First I need to identify the problem:

What is(are) the problem(s)?
1. I started this project 18 months or so ago without really understanding the project, even though I thought I understood enough to go somewhere on this. After all, I'd done one whole audit.
2. No one else I work with understands how the telecoms work--I think including my boss. I've talked to ...

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Why am I so angry?

Thursday, October 22nd 2009

I engage in truly self-destructive behavior and I have for many years. I say stupid stuff, I talk too much, I don't behave appropriately. What is my problem?

I think this behavior has been going on for many years. I can think back to grad school or even vet school. Somehow I don't think through what I'm doing or saying, but it's almost like I'm doing it to sabotage myself. Did I miss out on something when I was growing up? Maybe I'm too much of a perfectionist and I'm afraid to give i...

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Sunday, October 11th 2009

It's 4:23 in the morning. I woke up about an hour ago and I don't think I slept much since then. I have some naggy pains here and there--back (right and left), right groin, left abdomen. My stomach hurts--like acid hurts--but I don't want or can't eat much; this is good for weight loss, but in the long run it coul be a problem. Is this what I'm going to be looking forward to forever? Probably so, though I haven't come to grips with that yet.

Today I am going to really practice "so...

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Saturday, October 10th 2009

I think I'm going to do some rearranging on my medical team. First, I think I need to find a new urologist--I've thought long and hard about this and I just don't think he's the guy for me. I don't think I'm going to detail the reasons to my other docs, but I am going to ask for referrals and talk to a few before I make a final choice. Second, the Pain Guy: I don't know. The first visit was a fiasco, but I'm willing to give it another shot. However, I am going to be a little more prepared ...

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