Wednesday, Mar 23 2011 - Day 2: One more day at a time
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Here it is, 3:44 in the morning and I woke up wanting to eat. Mind you, I'm not hungry; I just want to eat. I don't get this at all, but it is certainly a problem. But maybe, just maybe, if I can eat reasonably for the next few days, I can get beyond this eating addiction.
Addiction it is, too. I imagine -- visualize, if you will -- what it feels like to have my stomach strectched as far as it will go with food, especially high-glycemic carbs. The whole craving is not just quality (the carbs), it is also volume. There is some kind of "pleasure" reward that comes with that kind of over-eating. Intellectually, I don't get it -- all it does is make me fat and makes me feel yucky. But psychologically, the craving is almost more than I can take. I swear it consumes every waking minute when I get this way.