Wednesday, Mar 30 2011 - I have been dieting since I was 12.......
View CECILY55's food & exercise for this day
I have thought constantly about NOT eating, dieting, cutting calories (or carbs or fat or something) since I was 12. Which, now that I do the math, is 49 years. Over that 49 year period I have lost weight, gained weight, lost weight, gained...... Obviously, there is something wrong with this picture.
"Insanity: doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results."
Albert Einstein, (attributed), US (German-born) physicist (1879 - 1955)
Well, that's what I've been doing. So, now what? First, I need to get rid of some "stinkin' thinkin' ". I know that when I concentrate on controlling what I eat and trying to cut calories (or carbs or fat), sooner or later I develop destructive eating behaviors -- most prominently I start to binge continuously for some as-yet-unidentified psychological issues.
The initial plan is NOT to diet, NOT to cut anything, and TEACH myself that I can eat whatever I want today, tomorrow, forever. This doesn't mean I can eat a whole buffet everyday, but it does mean that I COULD if I WANTED. In other words, I don't have to "eat for a rainy day" because I won't have to deprive myself tomorrow. I do need to eat wisely, but I am going to quit counting and measuring and being anal about this. I may need to do some measuring in the future to reset my portion controls but not now.
So the thought processes are addressed -- not ingrained, but at least I have some self-talking points. Now for weight management. I know I have to lose pounds, but I don't have to do this in a hurry. So my plan is to lose 4-5 pounds every month for awhile. This won't take much doing, and after all, I know how to eat reasonably most of the time. If I eat reasonably 80-85% of the time, I suspect the weight loss will take care of itself. The only measuring I'm going to do is to weigh every day and record the numbers; as long as I am within 3 pounds of yesterday's weight and my week's average weight is less than the prior week, life will be good.