LYNNABEL's Jul 2004 CalorieKing Blog

Saturday, July 31st 2004

I got an email and a call from Molly today - she’s coming to town on Wednesday and will stay with me through Friday morning. I’m so glad.

This is what she wrote:

“I love emailing too - I don't know why it is so hard for me to pick up the phone sometimes. I do think I say what I mean much more effectively in writing than face-to-face. Maybe that is a flaw - but I accept it.

I'm glad you like the wedding. Having you and Lesa and Lish there meant the world to me even though it ...

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Tuesday, July 27th 2004

I feel more serene right now having worked out than I did this weekend or driving home today. Steve and I went to Kate’s wedding which was difficult for me - I don’t know how to just be about this subject - I feel that I have to either act or cry. I thought perhaps Anna or Lish would be in the wedding, but it was hard to see that Anna was the maid of honor and Lish was the only bridesmaid besides her sisters. It was just very obvious how left out I am. And I know this is a broken record - but ...

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Wednesday, July 21st 2004

I’m so tired and empty today. I don’t want to focus on it too much for fear of doing any permanent damage, but I am very frustrated with Novartis right now. I’m not getting a ¼ of the training I need. I might as well have taken this week off for all George can meet with me or provide me with any useful information. Every day he says we’ll meet more or longer or about more substance the next day and each day so far we’ve met for snatches that make me want to cry. I know that in a month it w...

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Sunday, July 18th 2004

Well, I start my new job tomorrow! I’m looking forward to it, and am not nervous. I’ll be meeting C early for training, then I have a corporate orientation, and then C for the rest of the day. It will be good to see her again.

My staff gave me a clock, engraved with “Lynn - You will be missed. Good Luck. Brunswick”. It is beautiful, and I was very touched at how sad they seemed to have me leave. I left two of them crying on Friday afternoon when I left. And L, my old supervisor, IM’ed ...

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Friday, July 16th 2004

Today is my last day at the group home. I am so restless. In fact, I’m staying just so I can say goodbye to my two afternoon staff who I think would be very hurt if I didn’t stay. Otherwise I’d be out of here. Forty five more minutes. Ugh.

I am anxious to go. I think I’ve just been processing the idea of leaving for so long that I can’t really feel anything right now except that this is the right thing to do.

Just got a call from a person who didn’t identify themselves who start...

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