Wednesday, Dec 1 2004
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Another David Burns exercise I tried from this morning.
Step One/Event: Seeing myself in the elevator mirror.
Step Two/Describe and Rank Feelings:
Step Three: Triple Column
1. I am fat.
2. I am unattractive.
3. I am without worth because of my hips.
4. I should love myself more.
4. Should Statement.
1. I am not fat. I am a healthy weight by all scientific standards. And even if I were fat, so what? I deserve self esteem just by existing. I do not need to earn my own self esteem.
2. I dont know whether others are attracted to me or not. I am reasonably sure my husband is. Having someone Im not in love with consider me attractive is nice, but not necessary to my happiness. I like to look nice, to like what I see in the mirror but it is not the sum total of my worth. I do not need to be attractive to everyone to earn my own self esteem.
3. This is ridiculous. I am not my hips. It would be nice if my hips were smaller, but I am not my hips. My worth has a human being is not dependent on the size of my hips and it would be ridiculous to think so.
4. I am working on loving myself more. It would be nice if the process were automatic but its not yet. I do not need to earn love by appearance, especially when that evaluation of appearance is subjective.
Result: I feel a bit better. The emotions are down in ranking to about 40 each.