LYNNABEL's Jan 2008 CalorieKing Blog

Monday, January 21st 2008

Being a mother is a fascinting state of being to me. Endless food for thought, endless ways my heart hurts and my soul melts. That said, there are really only two things that I don't like (understatement) about being a mother. In fact, I think its safe to say I resent them intensely, in part because both seem completely out of my control to prevent, and both take up valuable soul-energy that I would rather direct elsewhere.

1. The constant guilt. And I don't mean a little annoying voice th...

Read the rest of this entry »

Thursday, January 17th 2008

I went to the annual planning meeting on Tuesday for my new company. It was great - it was the first such meeting they've had (they are only 2 years old), and it was reassuring to see that I think I will both understand the work they do and be able to contribute fairly quickly. I liked everyone I met, and feel like this is truly a neat little gem of a company. The president, who is a fairly silent partner/manager, told me how excited Chris was to have me and that (basically) I should feel very g...

Read the rest of this entry »

Coloured Toys

Sunday, January 13th 2008

The title of today's church service was "A New Covenant: The Promises We Make to Our Children" and one of the songs had the following lyrics. They made me cry, because they resonated so deeply with me...that desire to give and give and give to Will and Ellen that feels instinctual and primal.

When I bring to you colour'd toys

When I bring to you coloured toys, my child, I understand why there is such a play of colours on clouds, on water, and why flowers are painted in tints...

Read the rest of this entry »

Friday, January 11th 2008

Ellen is sleep on my shoulder right now with the boppy under her butt, so I can type. She didn't sleep worth #@$%^& last night. I'm bummed. I keep reminding myself that she is not yet 3 weeks old and there is tons of time left before I go back to work for her to improve. I'm really dreading S being awake with her at night. He is so profoundly awful when he doesn't get enough sleep. I'm really going to have to fight to take on the night time duties with Ellen after I go back to work. Its just...

Read the rest of this entry »

Lucky Me

Monday, January 7th 2008

I've been meaning to journal for so many days now, but it just keeps going to the bottom of the priority list. I don't want to lose my thoughts about Ellen's first weeks, though, so it needs to be a priority.

I'm logging again, which is a start. I have a long ways to go to be eating healthy, but I'm logging. I can't really exercise per se yet, but I am walking with Will in the afternoons and will do that for another week or two until I think I can safely handle 5-10 minutes of the Elipse or...

Read the rest of this entry »

Next »

« Previous