Monday, Mar 31 2008
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I am struggling right now. I'm feeling what I think is good bit of mourning for my personal time. Between being gone from the house for 10/11 hours each day to worrying about making sure every moment with my children is meaningful, I have neither the time for personal things on a daily basis or time for my husband.
I'm a smart person - there are certainly things I could do to help this situation out, but I'm just tired of HAVING to SCHEDULE everything. I don't want to have to plan 3 days ahead to spend a few hours by myself, shopping. I don't want to feel pressured (by time) to be intimate with S during the only 35 minutes a day that both kids are asleep. I'd like an uniterrupted conversation with someone besides Will.
I have a lot more thoughts on this, but I don't have time to expand. If I do, I'll come back to ready blogs and write a bit more.
I love my children, and am very conscious of my blessings. But I'm a bit sad/frustrated, too.