LYNNABEL's Jul 2008 CalorieKing Blog

Thursday, July 31st 2008

I have been experiencing severe fatigue/sleepiness regularly over the past few weeks. I had attributed it to the weekends of solo child duty and poor sleeping during the week, but its not abating even though I’ve had 4 nights now of 7 hours of relatively uninterrupted sleep. I’m literally falling asleep in the middle of my work. Granted, this is a very low key work environment (few meetings, very isolated and private cube) but still…it seems excessive.

I realized that I was getting used...

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Tuesday, July 22nd 2008

Have I mentioned that Will and I are going to a Mommy and Me gymnastics/tumbling class on Thursdays? I had originally thought this would be a good activity for Will because he has had some trouble translating verbal directions into physical actions, at times. (Example: Pick up your foot. Turn around. Etc.). The first session made me think that Will had a long way to go, but he picked up very quickly, and by the third session, he is moving with direction very well. I was also worried during that ...

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Thursday, July 17th 2008

I keep starting a journal entry, and then giving up. As if not having a crisis of the soul means there’s nothing to write about.

This week has been up and down for me, emotionally. I’ve been highly irritated at times, and very content at times. I’m getting the hang of regrouping after a bad experience with the kids. Rather than making grandiose resolutions or spending hours self-analyzing, I’m reviewing, planning, and letting go. Its helping me get back to where I want to be quicker.

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Tuesday, July 8th 2008

I have a mental image of a body builder flexing her biceps and blowing on them. That’s how I feel after the last 84 hours alone with Will and Ellen. It was so empowering. And intense. So often I thought, I want to write about this, but what little personal time I had I wanted to use for other things. I was calm, mostly serene, fun, and active. It wasn’t perfect – Will had to have some timeouts/quiet times and Ellen did her usual poor sleeping, but I navigated it successfully.

I really ap...

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Wednesday, July 2nd 2008

I’ve been thinking lately about the amount and types of guilt I feel, and wondering what to do about them.

My biggest sense of guilt right now is about Ellen’s lack of sleeping through the night and how it impacts Steve. Steve doesn’t do or say anything to make me feel guilty about this, its entirely self-generated, but it makes me defensive and frustrated. Why is it just easier to suffer yourself through something than have someone else “do it” for you? Is this a characteristic of wo...

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