LYNNABEL's Jun 2009 CalorieKing Blog

Friday, June 26th 2009

Ellen is exactly 1.5 years old this week.

She has been using more and more words that are actually understandable - “sank u”; “wow!”; “hat”; “head”; “nose”; “shoe”; “Tibby!”

She has several words/sounds she uses in direct imitation of the rest of us. She says, “Oh!” when she sees something new or unusual. She says “um” when looking at two or more things to choose from (think me standing in front of the fridge with the door open); and my personal favorite “two!” whe...

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Friday, June 12th 2009

Today is a day for feeling lonely and fat and anxious.

These feelings used to be much more common than they are now, which I appreciate. But that doesn’t make them any easier to deal with.

I know why I feel this way. There is an event I had committed to attending tomorrow and when I looked up directions for this event, I found out that two other individuals from a troubled/anxiety-ridden time in my past will be there. While these individuals probably meant well, they hurt me badly and...

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Friday, June 5th 2009

'Cuz life isn't hard enough already, we have to have too-high expectations of ourselves. I suppose the high expectations themselves wouldn't be a problem without the associated guilt and self castigation. There's the rub. I’ve really been thinking about how to help Ellen realize, as she grows, that she doesn’t have to put the words “I think” in front of every sentence, or compulsively apologize. Both of which I do, and both of which affect ...

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