Thursday, Nov 19 2009
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Will's first school picture!!
Exquisite eyeliner dream last night. No eyeliner involved, though. This time it was a futuristic urban setting, with white marbled landscaping rocks everywhere. Random fires popped up out of the rocks. I was carrying my clothes instead of carrying a suitcase of clothes, which meant I kept dropping the clothes, and picking them up. This, apparently, was very exciting. Prior to that, there were huge, cylindrical (hi, Jay!) towers with elevators inside that required much riding up and down. I need a good Freudian dream interpreter. Er, maybe not as it seems pretty blatant.
Work is very stressful right now. I realized after a particularly unpleasant meeting that I need take all the things I'm learing and exploring with Jill (my therapist) and be mindful of them everyday. I keep hoping certain things will become habit, but they won't become habit until I am deliberate and proactive and consciously applying them. I don't know how to implement this, though. Perhaps a 5 minute mini-meditation session just after getting to work in the morning? Bascially to remind myself that a) I am doing my best b) even if I am awkward in my approaches/responses at times, my company is pretty dysfunctional - ie its NOT just me c) try to remove opinions and feelings from my interactions with a few key individuals. I also want to incorporate some yoga into my mornings, but am still in the planning stages with that.
I am hoping to see my sister in April on a trip to Miami - I have been thinking about making this trip a reward for maintaining. I need to mentally iron out the details because this type of reward has to be purchased well in advance, so I may not have succeed by the time I commit to it, but I think I can get my thinking in line with it. I'm NOT a carrot and stick person when it comes to weight loss - to me, the reward is the weight being lost. But, perhaps I could use this tool with maintenance, since that is my huge struggle.
Am so curious about this week's weigh in on Saturday - I am feeling good, and hope scale and measuring tape confirm that.
Can't believe its Thanksgiving next week. We are going to OKC - did I mention that? Steve is coming, which will be wonderful. I'm just bummed that my sister and brother won't be there.