Saturday, Nov 21 2009
View LYNNABEL's food & exercise for this day
I am SO frustrated. No loss this week. Not even a 10th of a lb. Measurements were down (very, very slightly), but I can't accept that this is my new set point. Although, yes, it would be easier to maintain here, my self confidence is tied to a different number. Really, really tied to a different number.
And looking forward to next week - I'm traveling! I can't expect to be on as on track as I want to be when traveling! I'm so frustrated.
What can I do differently?
Work out more? I already do what feels like the most my schedule will allow (25-30 minutes, 4 x week). I know that isn't tons, but I work full time, have a 1 hour commute and small children. I don't think I'm making excuses, am I?
Eat less? I already only eat around 1200-1300 calories per day 5x per week - and that is gross, not net. This level of calories SUCKS - its HARD. I don't think reducing that would be good for my body, would it?
Give up my free day? Oh, I don't want to. I don't want to. But maybe that's it. Then I could weigh myself every morning to see if there is TRULY NO DAMN fluctuation in my weight.
Should I get my BMR tested? What if it is abnormally low? It would be good to know FOR SURE.
Should I try to maintain here until after Xmas? Maybe that will give my body a chance to recalibrate, and then I'll see more movement on the scale if I do a post-Xmas push.
I've never been more pissed at my genes.
Think short term: I think I'll keep my free day today, do reduced calories as best I can while traveling, not weigh in next week, skip next week's free day and see where that leaves me - theoretically that's 13 days of reduced calories. If I maintain I'll know I need to do/tweak one of the above. If I lose, I'll just know that this process is INCREDIBLY, PAINFULLY slow. If I gain, I'll slit my wrists. Sound good?
Seriously, though - I could use any input/ideas you might have.