Tuesday, Nov 24 2009
View LYNNABEL's food & exercise for this day
I appreciate the feedback you gave me on my last entry. I have thought long and hard about it and have not arrived at any conclusions other than I feel like this is becoming an obsession, which isn't what I'm aiming for. On the other hand, I'm not at all ready to concede the fight.
I decided that since I couldn't decide what to do, that I would eat at maintenance on Sunday and take each day on its own after that until I can decide what I want to do long term. I do want to keep pushing down a few more pounds, but I'm not sure when and how I want to do that. I really don't have any huge plans for the Holidays other than the OKC trip that I need to be worried about, so I could start back up again after OKC. I know that when I do, I want to find a way to get a lot more protein in my 1200/1300 calories that I was.
1600 (maintenace calories at my current weight) = utter bliss. Utter bliss.
I did find the courage (and I'm not being sarcastic - it really took loin-girdage) to weigh myself yesterday and today (and going forawrd every morning). I am hoping that this will actually help me relax about my weight and not fixate so much (and thus be crushed by) a weekly weigh in. Guess what the scale said? Same damn thing as the last 3 weeks - is it normal to have literally NO variation in weight? Steve weighed himself so I know the scale isn't "stuck" - just me.
Work and life are busy. But navel gazing is just SO interesting its hard to tear myself away from me.