Thursday, Nov 26 2009
View LYNNABEL's food & exercise for this day
I am 35 today. I'm trying to figure out what that means to me. At one point it produced a lot of anxiety - original questions like, "What is the point of it all?" Today I am focused on where I want my career to be.
I'm focused on that because of yet another unpleasant interaction with my coworker from hell. Even though I was able to (mainlyh) frame the situation mentally as "This is HER issue, Lynn, not yours" I am left with a horrible taste in my mouth and true sense that my boss will simply NOT "protect" me from this situation. (This is actually a big step for me - not to disolve into rage and anger and shame over it). But what to do? I can think of two things: Insist (to my boss) that my coworker have her compliance needs met by someone other than me, which would be essentially having my position redefined as what it was when I started. Or simply ignore her and the situation. I've rejected every other option I've thought of. I'm stuck in a mental do-loop that I can't get out of with regards to this. I am so resentful that EITHER (or even ANY) choice may stand in the way of future opportunities for me at this company. I am going to try to put into the back of my mind during our trip and Thanksgiving, and see if I can come up with anything better by NOT thinking about it.
Has anyone noticed that its a horrible time to be looking for a job?