LYNNABEL's Dec 2009 CalorieKing Blog

Thursday, December 31st 2009

My thoughts are swirling, and I'm trying to pin them down.

I wish I could own my feelings more – meaning, I wish I could have the courage of my convictions without the accompanying guilt. For example, if I know that S wants me to do something, but it conflicts something I have to do for work, then I feel guilty no matter what I chose. I wish I could just chose one thing and not feel badly about not choosing the other. And I want to blame either Steve or work for “putting me in this positi...

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Sunday, December 27th 2009

Ellen is 2 years old (as of Christmas Eve).

She is a handful right now. There's no other way to say it. She is very possessive. She must say, “No, its mine!” a hundred times a day. She's even perfected the gansta stance with her arms crossed infront of her chest and a scowl on her face. I have to try not to laugh. Neither Steve nor I can figure out where she learned that – perhaps its innate to strong willed little girls?

She's having tantrums pretty regularly, especially when I'm h...

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Saturday, December 19th 2009

Today was officially the end of Callie's Countdown to Christmas, for me.

C: 38.25
W: 31.25
H: 38
T: 21.75

C: 35.25
W: 29
H: 36.5
T: 20.5

My weighin this week was up (from 132 last week, and I even saw a 129.8 one day), but measurements are all down, so I'm not too concerned.

Do I want to be at 130? Yes. But I'm going to ma...

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Sunday, December 13th 2009

Okay - how annoying. I just wrote an entry, and lost it. Arg.

Just wanted to let you know that I am safe, and my family is safe, so my apologies if I worried anyone in that regard. I have some non CK individuals who see my blog so I can't make it for members-only. So, I have to be a bit cryptic in case there is someone out there looking, you know?

The problem still is exists, and will for some time. I will have to figure out how to live with until I can change it. I don't know quite ye...

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Friday, December 11th 2009

i could use some love right now. something really horrible has happened to me. i can't write about it here but i could really use some love. its not S or the kids.