Thursday, Jun 24 2010
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My pride has taken such a beating over the past four months. Iíd like to think Iím the only one in my immediate (M Ė F) surroundings who knows this, but I donít know how much longer I can keep this up. My self esteem and my sense of self worth are unstable at the best of time Ė this canít be good for me. My eyes well up, my nose prickles and my throat closes in grief and frustration and humiliation at least several times a week. Is sheer endurance is a virtue? I hope that is the lesson the universe is trying to teach me. Otherwise, Iím not getting it.