Saturday, Feb 12 2011
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Today is a day where I just need to put on the big girl panties.
So my metabolism is 100 cals/day slower than most people my height and weight. Getting pissed (like seriously pissed) about it doesn't change a thing. My weight is a constant battle for me. Do I wish it was different? Yes. But I still haven't found the answer so either I should keep trying or learn to live with it.
So my passport photo put me in a week long funk about aging and my skin and despair over my appearance in general. And I don't mean that in a glib, sarcastic kind of way - I was VERY upset about it. Since I'm not going to have cosmetic surgery any time soon, its just not worth the emotional energy. Do I wish I looked better in pictures and was one of those people who will always look younger than my age? Yes. But there's very little I can do about.
So my last 3 years were spent at a company that XXXXX. Its done, I've received lots nice compliments as I say my goodbyes to outside business partners, and I've learned a lot. It sucks, and I can't change what happened.
So Will and Ellen are difficult on the weekends, at least 50% of the time. Its an unfortunate dynamic right now, and even though it feels like its completely unfair to have my limited time at home spent disciplining my children, being a parent isn't always fun. Some things just have to be endured.
So. Big girl panties. I really need to limit my expectations of myself to this: I will do my best. Beyond that I need to let myself off the hook.