Sunday, May 6 2012
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Am dealing with the mood swings of my period as well as a strange chest cold. I was REALLY out of it when I got home from my trip - it was as if I was starting a brand new job. I think, in retrospect, it was the beginning of my cold/period causing that total disorientation. It was very disconcerting, though. I seriously wondered if the PDG marguaritas, the buttery nipples, the fruity wine, and the DVs had finally fried my remaining brain cells.
Speaking of, I had a wonderful time with some great women. I laughed so hard that my stomach ached. Its really amazing that we can pick up so easily - in many ways, these women are closer to me than most people in my day-to-day life. I feel very lucky.
Finishing a really nice weekend in some regards - worked from home on Friday to accomodate my annual dr's appt. No cysts, but she is ordering some blood work to see what my hormones are doing. She attributed my belly bloat to age, baring anything showing up in the blood work. Very depressing. She said she wouldn't like to see me weigh any more than I do now. No sh!t. She was polite and professional about it though, so I don't fault her. Just not exactly uplifting. In fact, she said to eat as if I'm diabetic.
For the first time in about 100 years, Steve and I stayed up on Saturday night after the kids went down, in front of a nice fire with wine/beer and a comedy show. Lots of talk and laughter and some tears, too. It was really, really, really nice. The comedian was Josh Blue who was born in Cameroun (where I lived for 5 years as a child) - it was fun. We even, gasp, talked about combining a work trip for me with a trip to Disney with the kids. We are definitely doing MUCH more together as a family and its working very well. I'm VERY thankful for this.
We had someone come give us a quote on a new driveway (we have a pretty big circle driveway which was one of the many things I loved about this house) - made with stone bricks, so it should be lovely although VERY expensive. We got a nice tax return and a very generous bonus. Between those things, we can afford the driveway. Still, its a little disconcerting to spend so much on something - now that I think about it, it'll be more than our last car and more than our boat. Yikes. But, we need it and it has a lifetime warranty, so I don't worry about whether its a wise investment. It is.
Steve and I got the dock in by ourselves, and Steve and the neighbors got the boat in, all with minimal trouble. It'll be nice to have the boat for evening/weekend rides as the weather gets warmer and warmer.
The down part of the weekend was feeling restless (it is getting chronic with me), and worried about school in the fall. And my cold. And some thunder/lightening overnight which I am scared of, but can't relax enough to sleep through. And reflecting on my weight/health. I need to work on my cholesterol. The blood work mentioned above needs to be done on day 2 or 3 of my period, so I'll try to combine it all with a lipid panel and a A1C (?), too. That gives me about 4 weeks to get on track. As painful as it will be, I will fast for the full 12 hours before hand to make sure that its as accurate as possible.
I can do it - I just need to focus on it. Steven is watching his weight, which is nice because it is motivating to me.
I actually made a pretty yummy pork tenderloin stew in the slow cooker with potato, carrots, and green beans. I really like cooking on the weekends. It helps with that feeling of restlessness that I get. Especially when Will or Ellen is in or near the kitchen with me.
Ellie has dress rehearsal this week and her recital/performance this weekend (twice!). So, it will be busy. Will has t-ball on Tuesday and Thursday.
Steve is going to a friend's cabin the weekend after next, so I'll have the house to myself a bit (after the kids are down) which I always enjoy.
My new employee starts (finally) tomorrow - I hope that it goes well. I kinda feel guilty about my job. Its SO NOT painful and so, well, reasonable, that I feel like I shouldn't make what I make. The person I'm hiring is essentially another me - so I'll be very lucky to have a high-skills person that I can direct/collaborate with. I feel guilty - is that ridiculous? I suppose its just that I almost expect it to fall out from under me. I don't think it will - but its hard not to worry sometimes. There are people who love their jobs and are well paid for them. It just feels strange to be one of them...