Monday, Oct 21 2013
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I want to write a blog entry but nothing is coming to my fingers. And I'm rejected the things coming to my mind. Mostly because they are whiny. When has that ever stopped me, though.
Had the weekend off school which means I promptly got a cold and spent yesterday and today miserable. Don't have enough PTO built up at the new job yet to justify taking the day off so I worked from home. Am dealing with boss issues (thankfully, lower case 'i' unlike uppercase 'I' at last job), which makes me wonder if a) I'm a problem or b) really great bosses are just that rare. Thinking back, I've had 2 really great bosses, 1 great boss, 2 awful/horrendous/evil bosses, the rest meh to manageable. One nice thing that I think I've finally internalized (when I can actually remember that I've internalized it) is that if I had to leave my job (any job), we'd survive. We'd figure something out. I'm less paralyzed than I've been in the past on this point.
Have 3 days of 'leadership training' starting an hour before I normally get to work which will probably be exactly the same as the training at BC - I should be thankful for the opportunity but instead I just feel like it will get in the way of getting my day job done (plus my weekend job plus, you know, my life). Gah. Am dreading the upcoming board meeting - my first at the new job. I can only be who I am, but am still nervous. I will feel on display. Gah. Have to ask the CEO a hard question on Wed. Gah. My manicure is chipping. Gah.
My dad was stayed with us for a week - it was good to see him, but I let it get in the way of my workout schedule so I know that part of my low-spirits are from lack of exercise.
Okay, pity party is over. Tomorrow is a new day and I'll just do my best. The problem is - when will I learn that doing my best doesn't have to mean hourly herculean feats of miracle-ness while looking good?