Thursday, Feb 10 2011
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I am stressed to the max. Tuesday was great until my husband told me get got suspended from work for 3 days. He is an HR manager and has been in a job that has not been great but was trying to stick it out to get some longevity on his resume. a couple years ago he was laid off and was under employed for 9 months....during this time I gained 40 pounds that I re lost last year. His current employer was never good from the beginning...everyone there is just sour BUT he was trying to make it work because it is so hard to find a job right now. I was really proud of his attitude....he just sucked up all the negativity this company had and really worked hard to fit into their culture. It does not seem that Jason did anything wrong but the owner of the company was angry that he signed something regarding searching for benefits. We believe this is only a suspention and he is not being fired but we will won't know for sure until Monday. My stomach is just in knots!!!!!
So Tuesday evening I knew I was stressed so I decided to have cereal for dinner....I needed something very crunchy and I thought this would be the best food choice. I ate 2 big bowls of cereal (kashi) but then ate about 600 calories in chocolate. I hate to say it but it just felt good.
Yesterday my eating was a lot better. I did not log anything....I was just feeling numb and really could not formulate my thought. yesterday but I did not binge so that is a plus.
Luckily the scale was good to me this morning 221.....I was hoping for 220 this week but with all the stress I will glady take a maintain.
Jason and I hope that he will go back to work Monday after the suspension and they will not fire him and he is already job searching these days he is at home.
This does change my focus some. I do have a personal trainer. I love having a personal trainer BUT I will stop personal training for a while to save more money. I belong to our community center and can do classes for free...I will do those for a while until my savings account has a larger emergency fund.
My husband and I have paid off almost 40,000 in debit the past 4 years and have 1 more year and then we will not have anymore credit card debt. That will feel good. We have a ton of medical bills to pay off as well. I am sad about losing the personal traininer but maybe I will feel more comfortable after I get some more money in savings and pay off those medical bills.
Stress stress stress. I just don't want to gain weight right now. I think this will be my focus.........stress.....