Tuesday, Jan 29 2008 - one good day
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a good day can make all the bad days seem unimportant. i made it through yesterday unscathed; without opening the refrigerator door looking for comfort one too many times. i think i stayed within my calories for the first time in 2 weeks. i didn't work out though. i will soon enough. one challenge at a time. it's not a mole hill i am climbing, but a mountain of self doubt, demotivation and fear that i just will never be healthy again. i have to fight those feelings every day. i know many of us do.
the first step to success for me will be to manage my expectations better. i believe i can lose enough weight to be more fit than i am now. but i don't believe i will ever reach my previous goal; a weight that i haven't been close to in 28 years. it's unreasonable to think that I can get to 150 pounds again. i have doomed myself to failure by focusing on such a difficult target. i am not going to do that any more.
but that doesn't mean i am giving up either. all it means is that i will take what i can get and be happy. and i will only get as long as i give to the cause. i am willing to make sacrifices, but not every day for the rest of my life. let's call them changes instead. i am willing to work hard, but not to the point of obsession. so if i lose 25 to 30 pounds this year and stay active i will be very happy. anything more than that will be an unexpected bonus. i am confident i can do that; and do it again in 2009. at that rate, i will lose 100 pounds or so over 4 years. it seems so doable when i look at it in smaller increments. hey thank goodness i renewed my membership until 2011.
I will need every minute of the next few years!!!
i am off to costco. hopefully i won't spend a fortune. meanwhile here's to one more good day for us all.