WILLLOSEIT's CalorieKing blog

Monday, May 19 2008 - Easier said than done

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Back on target; not quite. Measuring and logging consistently: not yet. Working out everyday; not even close. Wanting the brass ring; absolutely,

Well that about sums up where my head, heart and actions are right now. I treasure the idea of being thinner. It's something I have dreamed about my whole life. Honestly, I can't remember a time where I was satisfied with the way I looked. Even at my thinnest, I was so unsure of myself. Poor self-esteem and a sad body image combined to make it impossible to actually believe that I looked good.

The wisdom of the years allows me to look back and see now what I couldn't see then. I know I looked healthy and beautiful when I was a size 12. I know that was a reasonable size for my body and type. I know that anything smaller than that is not a goal I should have had then and absolutely know I won't strive for now. You see on paper I have all the answers. I know exactly what is right for me. But those very same years have added so many pounds, decreased my ability to lose weight at a reasonable pace and played such havoc with my confidence that I have come to doubt that success in weight loss will ever be mine. But I still want it more than anything else in the world.

And there is my quandary. But I won't give up. I may not be confident, but that doesn't mean I am not determined. So I will keep trying and keep coming back. It's all I can do.

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Thanks to everyone for the welcome back. I missed you all. I am enjoying my blogging again so thanks for the feedback. I'll be around.....

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8 comments so far.

8.

6 years ago

:hi: I'm so glad to see your determination is back. I know you can do this! :love:

by JUSTPATTI

JUSTPATTI

7.

6 years ago

Hi Grace! It is amazing when we discover that we already have the tools in place. It is simply a matter of figuring out what they are and then using them. I totally get where you have all the self doubts. Time to figure out that those inner demon :evil: voices (that is what I call them) only have as much power over you as you allow them to have. You take care of yourself and thanks for posting! :hi::bye:

by HAMMIESMOM

HAMMIESMOM

6.

6 years ago

I did the same thing as you, I wasn't satisfied with weighing 130 pounds even though that is a really healthy weight for me so I gave up and gained 100 pounds! Sounds so silly when you write it down, I am smarter now and so are you. Glad you are here!

by MEYDEE

MEYDEE

5.

6 years ago

Hi Grace 1 vs Setback 0 - so glad to see you back. - Judy

by PEANUT

PEANUT

4.

6 years ago

So glad to see you again Grace:heart2: You CAN do this:thumbu2:

by TEXSKH05

TEXSKH05

3.

6 years ago

Someone told me recently that it's not how you deal with success that determines your path, but how you deal with setbacks. You are doing great restarting, and I am confident will get to where you want to be, one step at a time!

by BREADANDROSES

BREADANDROSES

2.

6 years ago

:smile1: I saw you were back! Dropped by to say hello :wave1:

by WOLFENA

WOLFENA

1.

6 years ago

Glad you're back. Being determined works too and when it pays off it will help your confidence too. Be well, be healthy, be happy. Sue

by MEDIASUE

MEDIASUE