Its interesting how quick I am to look at something else (like a product on an infomercial) as THE fix for my weight. I am an educated woman who knows its cals in vs. clas out. I KNOW THIS. I think I am resentful of the fact that I have let myself go SO FAR beyond what I ever thought I could. I want to "have it all" I really do, but there is also a HUGE part of me (probably located somewhere in my ASS) that doesnt really care. I am pretty sure I see glimpses of it in my parents and paternal aunt. I do NOT want that to be MY reality. I really need to wake up to the fact that I have to be responsible for what i put in my mouth and how much i work out. I need to have a cleaning lady every week again because I am so fast to put myself last its not even funny (although it does rhyme). I can do this I know I can I just need to well,... DO IT. EVERYDAY. So yeah, I'm still going and lets just say getting stronger, shall we?