Elizabeth, I'm sending you virtual <hugs>, because, yes, we've all felt that way. You are correct, it is a long journey, and yes, it can seem all-consuming. It's not, really, and gets better as you go. But it really seems that way at first. So what you're feeling is completely valid and reasonable. <hugs>
But you can't give up. It's worth it. You are worth it.
I'm in a weird position here because I'm still obese by the charts. I'm still 60ish pounds away from my Dr's recommended goal weight. I'm fat to anybody looking at me. But I've lost so much - 150 freaking pounds for pete's sake! - that I also have the feel for how good success feels. So let me speak from that perspective for a while.
What you're trying to do is difficult. But when you get control of your eating habits, when you get to a healthy weight, when you feel how strong and alive and happy you are, when you see how things both small & large in your life are so much easier and better, you'll look back on the difficulties and smile. Ya' gotta trust me on this one. I know, when you're in the thick of it it's tough, but in hindsight you'll know that it was worth every ounce of effort you put into it.
A setback is just that, a setback. Pick yourself up, dust off, and go again.
You deserve it. You want it. You can do it.
"I can do it. I will do it."
HW390 CW238 GW180
Last Edited: 11:02am PDT, April 18th 2012