Hi, I'm again new to ck. still have the same weight to lose, over 100 pounds. very quickly I un-motivate myself. On Jan 1 2012 I retired. While I am very happy to be retired I am feeling somewhat lost. At first my grown kids kept me busy but gradually I am more and more on my own. Scary. I feel like I should be busy every minute of the day however I'm not. I avoid doing stuff.
Last week I started two 10 week courses at Widener U, Lifelong Learning courses, watercolor painting for beginners and a Literature discussion class. For many years I have belonged to a wonderful gym, ACAC and I go to Longwood Gardens once a week. I live close to LG. Because of my weight and spinal stenosis I use an electric scooter when I go to LG. This upsets me to use a scooter and this past week I have started using a cane to walk.
I find it scary to lose weight. I can rationalize why losing weight is good - healthy, looking better, I'll be able to fit into clothes. but I seem to refuse to allow myself to lose weight, I try to avoid mirrors, I don't seem to have high expectations for myself. DragonGirl
Last Edited: 1:23pm PDT, September 16th 2012