Hello, all. I'm from Georgia (US). I'm a 52-year-old Type II diabetic. I'm married, with two living children, one about to graduate from high school, and a HS sophomore. I have two wonderful Boston Terriers, and love to spend my spare time knitting and quilting.
I've fought weight most of my adult life. In my 20's, I was 20 pounds overweight after grad school, lost 15, and gained 20 over a period of about 2 years. The next time I had 30 pounds to lose and, well, the pattern began.
At 29 I became pregnant, and a gestational diabetic. That baby was stillborn on her due date, not, apparently, as a result of the diabetes. I adopted our oldest four years later, and had another baby a year and a half after that. I was gestational diabetic with that pregnancy as well, but took insulin for the first time. No real complications, a healthy little boy.
Just three years after that I was diagnosed as Type II. Admittedly, I didn't manage it very well, and my weight continued to see-saw. Three years ago, I got serious about the diabetes, saw a dietician for the first time, and she sent me to Calorie King. It was the first thing that really "worked" for me for a long period. My goal at that time was to lose 80 pounds, and I was more committed for a longer time than I had ever been before. I stuck with it for 8 months, losing about 40 pounds. I was on my way. I was even able to reduce two of my diabetes meds.
Then, I had several health challenges, all at once. The main one was a partial loss of sight in one eye - caused by a tiny blood clot that lodged in the optic nerve. After several days of IV-delivered steroids, it was concluded that the damage was permanent. I was in doctor's offices for different problems EVERY SINGLE DAY for about 10 weeks. I felt completely betrayed by my body - I was, for the first time, doing everything right, and my health was obviously deteriorating on several fronts. What, I asked myself, was the point of all of my efforts?? The truth is, I embarked on a several-years pity party. Not pretty.
So, I've allowed myself to do whatever I want since then. Over the past three years, I've had a steady weight gain of about 2 pounds per month which has taken me to this 100+ group which, I assume, no one really wants to be a part of. Nevertheless, I'm glad to learn on my recent return to CK that you are all here.
I'm in a place where I WANT to get back my former level of motivation, but I am very far from actually being there. Intellectually, I know it's necessary if I'm going to see a 60th birthday, but the feelings aren't there yet.
Probably MUCH more introduction than needed, but good to get it all down in one place.
SW - 246
CW - 244
GW - 140