Sacramento, California Area
Hi Toni -
Don't give up. Set goals that are reasonable. Take what you are already doing that's good and just kick it up a notch and hang there until that becomes the new habit. Try not to do too many new things at once. Pick an area and just work on and make that your focus until you get it better mastered. While you are doing that, then just "do your best" with the other areas.
I am trying to look at this better health journey as something that if I am going to be successful I need to build my foundation by putting in each piece and securing it so that it becomes a part of me, not just something I do quickly to get quick results.
I have come to know there are reasons why my poor eating, sleeping, & exercise habits have developed. For me it was often connected to my emotions. Food became a comforting, self-soothing thing - my drug of choice is one way you could look at it. At the same time I have kept my life running pretty fast with good things of responsibility, gaining an education, etc. Those things, even though they are good things, they can take over your world if you're not looking -- I wasn't looking. People become to depend on you and can pressure you with guilt etc. to keep going for their benefit (not much thought as to your health and well-being) and then it makes it even more challenging to be able to slow down.
For me I have run and run, with the hope that things will eventually slow down on their own, but that hasn't happened. I am grateful for the things I have accomplished in my life, but my life has run me more than I have run it. I will be 50 yr. old next August, and I have hit that level of understanding that I need to be the one to put on the brakes and change things up, otherwise I won't be able to get off this fast paced road.
This fast paced road has allowed me to sacrifice my own self, emotional, physical and mental well-being. That's just not OK for me anymore. For me, my health goals right now are just the basics. I am in the process of making some serious changes with my job, and even though things are hectic in this process of change, they are changing for the better. For me its about having those health goals to help me to remember what I am shooting for, and to be more mindful and get them in as often as I can and not let it sit on the wayside. I have let things sit for too long and I now have a longer journey and many more pounds to lose because I haven't given those goals much thought. So, some days just by being mindful has prevented or decreased a binge or avoidance of good things (like walking a couple of laps around the floor at work), which was better than if I didn't care at all and ate the whole gallon of ice cream or sat at my desk for hours upon end caught up in paperwork.
So, please don't give up on yourself. Start to look at making those changes on the inside 1st (for me it was putting my attitude about myself in check and recognizing that my emotions are actually trying to help me recognize when things aren't going well, instead of making me feel bad so I go eat chocolate - I'm learning to recognize the real problem not just reacting to it) and then the outside will eventually show the results of taking your life back and not allowing food and emotions run your life. For me it is getting a better management of my time and my emotions/stress, and learning to really listen to my feelings instead of ignoring or being reactive. It is learning to not sweat the small things and keep my eye on the bigger picture.
Hang in there and keep going forward!
SW = 323.2 as of April 23, 2012
CW = 311.6
GW = 160
"It's your REACTION to ADVERSITY, not the adversity itself, that DETERMINES how your LIFE's STORY will develop." - Dieter F. Uchtdorf