I often feel like I carry a big story of faith and how God rescues his children, I used to tell it, but now, I am on a new chapter......i have been in a new chapter for over fifteen years now which forces me to live in today and creating new memories....
My oldest daughter turns fifteen in a few days....that was the age I was when I started dating my high school sweetheart that turned into the story you read yesterday.....he was a Christian, I was seeking God...but I didn't quite realize it. He wasn't seeking a Christian to date, but God had other plans for the next almost eleven years. He totally turned his back on God, the mother of his child was a topless dancer that he met while living his gambling addiction, she didn't look like a topless dancer, just a young girl with a rough life who actually dressed modestly...she was only 19, my ex told me that he wanted the relationship he lost when i became a dedicated Christian (oh brother, that s between him and God....i would not want the path he chose). i really didn't know very much until Everything was exposed, i just knew that i had a very lonely married life, that only sometimes seemed like it existed. I have shut the door on communication with him because he doesn't have any boundaries and played a lot of head games...I have heard that he is learning, but this needs to be between him and God, I need peace, and we made our peace. I am not bitter about the money he owes me, but it does help me keep my boundaries up. I wish him well.
I have encouraged my kids with their crushes to see through the years how they treat each other, see if they stay nice...but it dawned on me the other day.....not everyone cracks, my kids could end up with beautiful long term beautiful relationships that start young....I pray everyday for them and their future spouses, that God will prepare them for each other....but, I have to admit, I get very nervous....but, they are much better kids than I was... Not as naive and trusting as I was, we have been exposed to a lot of manipulative people at our school, so it kind of teaches us when we can and cannot give, and who is more of a schemer.
God really does protect us even in the middle of the storm, and he does work out things for good for those who love him. Rom. 8:28 And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.
Love you ladies and thank you so much for sharing the above verse.
I am figuring out our monthly budget today...and we have a ton of expenses and pans that we want to see happen, so I appreciate any and all prayers, thank you!
Logging---yes, every bite---too many bites, goal for today is to eat less yet be more productive.
Last Edited: 8:03am PDT, July 31st 2013