You know, turning 50 was no big deal for me, but I'll be sixty in Feb and although I've not thought a bunch about it, I know without a doubt I have a lot less birthdays to look forward too. Now, I never thought after all these years of struggling with my weight, I'd still be struggling. But, I am. Are any of you sugar addicted? I absolutely love anything with sugar, flour (oh, it can be whole wheat) and fat in it. Bread, pastry's etc. And if that's not available candy...how the hell do I manage this. I am having the toughest time. I start out great during the day and by the time I've been at work a few hours I've blown it. I go to a counselor (I'll see her tonight), I have a very supportive husband, I belong to a fitness program (which by the way I haven't done) and I still continue to fail. I know I should think before taking that first bite, but, I don't. My job is stressful and I find I have shoved something in my mouth before I give it any thought. Then, of course, one bite being too many and a thousand bites never being enough (an OA saying, maybe not exactly stated but something to this affect) I go for more. Then I feel badly, not really depressed, but badly about myself and the next day it starts all over again. There is a lot of time I wish I could just accept being a size 14 and leave it at that, but 20 extra pounds on me is not attractive. Not that I am trying to be a "knock-out" lord knows those days are over, but, I would like to have a few less bumps and rolls where they don't belong!! ha,ha! Thanks for listening. Chris
To lose confidence in ones body is to lose confidence in ones self.