Back to work today. Can't say that I am back to my normal routine, though. I didn't wake up early to get my run in because I didn't want to have extra time to sit around the house with no one to talk to. I decided I will go to the gym in the evenings, rather than get up early. My husband and I normally sit on the chaise and enjoy our coffee together every morning. Don't wanna do it by myself.

Neither my kid nor my hubby called me yesterday. It was odd. I got a fair amount of the house cleaned up. Still have more to do, though. Hubby isn't coming home until the 28th. I think I will be okay once my kiddo gets home. Who knew it was going to be like this??? I am a wreck. I do NOT have my sh!t together and I feel paralyzed. I ran into an acquaintance at the grocery store and I told her that everyone was gone and that I didn't know when hubby was going to be home and she asked me if everything was okay between us. That really hit me for some reason. I think, maybe at some level, that there is a little bit of insecurity that maybe he won't come home. That is ridiculous, of course. We adore each other. Here I was thinking I was 100% secure and confident and stuff...riiiight. Weird.

My weight seems to be stuck. No up, no down, despite the healthy eating and increase in activity. I'm not really worried about it. I guess I don't really care. Not even sure why I felt compelled to write about it.

Whatever...I'm all over the place. This sucks. I'm going to try to focus on something that I understand. It'll make me feel better.