I was playing in virtual me world and it was really fun! It was cool to see what my body would look like at my goal weight!!!!
I am going to try and post me at my before weight of 192. And then post a pic of me at the current 155.
We'll see if it works!!!!
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So it worked....there is me in all my glory! I can't believe I looked that bad before. I am sure I did though. I am never going back to that. I am so glad I have made these healhty changes. I feel so much better in my new healthier body.
I have been stalled in my weight loss for awhile, but 155 is so much better than what I was. If I can ever stop being sick for more than a week I will loose the rest! I can't wait to look like the virtual 131 lb me!!!!

I wanted so bad to get back to kickboxing class today. I don't think I am well enough to handle it though.
That stinks. I wish the gym offered this class more than one morning a week. Its so great, and such an amazing calorie burn! I still haven't worn my new heat rate monitor to that class yet but I know I burn there, it is killer and fun at the same time. More than I can say about any other kind of cardio that I do.

I really need to get back to my C25k program too. I don't think there is any way I can run today though, not with the tightness in my chest I am feeling with this cough. My mother in law has the flu, she just called yesterday to tell me. I better not be getting that. I CANNOT GET THE FLU!!!!!

I go back to work on Sun night for the first time in almost 7 months. I cannot be sick. I will go whether I am sick or not, but I would much prefer to not be sick. You would think since I work at a hospital they would not want us to come sick, but they do not care. They want you there no matter what. You have a 104 temp and are throwing up??? Who cares, come in you have a shift Erika! They care about the bottem line, not the patients. Scary huh???? Its pretty unbelievable. They tried to make me work with pink eye. My eye was swollen shut and draining like crazy. It was Christmas though and they did not care. I put my foot down that time. I said you may not care, but the patients are not blind, they will see my super nasty infectious eye and not want me anywhere near them. Horrible huh????
Anyways....there is my rant against my hospital for the day. I am often less than happy with how they treat employees. It should not always be about the bottem line in my opinion.
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Well it was weigh in day this am.
I was scared to get on the scale after last week of eating off plan and only 2 days in the gym. 2 weeks before that being sick and no exersize...... Well I weighed 155.5. YEAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I did not gain. I was so scared that I was going to have gained weight. I was ready for it. I knew I had blown it.
I am so happy to be holding this new weight. I am officially staying down at 155 now. That finanlly down 2 pounds from the 157 my body kept me at for so long. Now its letting me stay at 155 even when I screw up a little. So I must have really lost this/gained some muscle too maybe and am burning a few more cals over the day????? I don't know but am excited. I just need to get to where I and my kids are not being sick all the darn time so I can get back into a routine at the gym!!!!
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I thought I had jumped through all of the hoops and was back on the schedule. Gonna work Sun. Then I got a call from the Staffing office. they said there is a new Director now and I will have to talk to her before they can put me on the schedule??? Like maybe I don't have my job?? What do they mean they can't put me on the schedule??? I was cleared for work by HR and Employee HEalth. I am so tired of their 3 ring circus. How many more hoops do I have to jump through to get my job back???? They are always desperate for help. Now when i want to come back they are making it so hard. I called this new Director lady this am and her message said she was Director of Women's and Children's Services????
What??? I am a float pool nurse. That means I work all over the hospital. Why would she be in charge of me now????? I am being relocated to a new job????? Truthfully women's and children, specifically L+D and mother/baby are my special favorite anyways. I love that, but I don't get paid as much if I work just one specialty. Thats why I float all over the hospital. So i am so confused. I wish this lady would call me back. Its been hours.