So, just when I think its over...I am finally cleared to go back to work.....
the bottom falls out again!!!!!!!!!!!!
I had a note from my doc to go back to work finally. I was really finally happy and at peace with going back to work PRN. No more being locked into having to work every weekend. I get to make my own schedule now. I am ready to go back. All I have to do is take my excuse to Employee Health and then I can start sceduling myself to work.... OR SO I THOUGHT....
So I go to Employee Health and turn in my excuse to the nurse. She sits me down and want me to give her a run down on the entire last 6 months of my life in minute detail. She then says she doesn' t know if she believes me that I am ready to come back to work. She doesn't know if she trusts my psychiatrist judgement???? She is a RN, since when is she qualified to trump a doctor's decision????????????
So she says I cannot come back until I am cleard by Occupational Health's nurse practitioner(this is another division of our hospital). Again, since when is a nurse qualified to trump a doctor, espcially one I have been seeing for the last 6 months?????????? I was soooooo MAD!!!! So, instead of heading back to work, I had to wait a week and go see this Nurse practitioner. I went to see her, and really all she did was take my temp,blood pressure, and heart rate--because that is so relevant to my mental health??????????????????, and then signed my release. Of course she did. She has no right to go against what my psychiatrist said. It was just a stupid hoop to jump through. My stupid hospital. They are so not employee friendly. So, finally I thought, I can call staffing and get my schedule going.
I leave Occupational HEalth and call Staffing office and schedule my first shift. YEAH. no, not so fast Erika.
............................................... they call back not an hour later...... THERE IS YET ANOTHER HOOP TO JUMP THROUGH!
Apparently they say I have a new boss,and I have to call her number, which they give me and be cleared by her now before I can come back. So I call her, and of course she does not answer, but the odd thing here, and of course there is an odd thing right??? well her machine says DIRECTOR OF WOMENS AND CHILDRENS SERVICES. Well I am a float pool nurse. not a womens and childrens. so did they put me in a new positon all together and not even tell me????????????? this was 3 days a go and the lady has still not returned my call. If I can't get her today that is another weekend that I dont' get to work. ANd my disability is over now, so I am not being paid. The hospital is really screwing me right now and I am not a happy camper
Ok, so there is my rant! I am so frustrated. These last months have been a nightmare for me.
I am really trying to trust God. I know you have a plan for me God. I know this. I know you have brought me to this place in my life for a reason. I am very thankful that you made the PRN call for me, as I don't know if J and I would have done it on our own yet. I do love the idea of not being locked in to every weekend any more. I need to try and call this lady again today. Help me to be calm Lord. Calm my nerves!!! Also, please help keep the rest of my family healhty. Just andrew and I have the flu right now. I am really trying to keep Caroline and Jackson away from us. I really don't want them to get it too. I know thats a shot in the dark as contagious as it is. If its your will, please keep everyone that is now healhty healhty. As Patrick's funeral is coming up tommorow, please let me feel well enough to attend. I don't want to infect anyone, but I would really like to attend.Ok I am going to go and call Ms Dirctor lady now.