Dear God,
Please calm my nerves today....I am very nervous about my upcoming meeting this afternoon at the hospital. It is with my "new boss". She seemed less than friendly on the phone. The hospital has given me the major run around over the last few weeks...I don't know what I am walking in to. I just know I need a job. I need to make money again. I know you have my best interests at heart. I trust you. Help me to just be myself and to present my best face.
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So....I plan to do a HIIT training on the treadmill today for the first time ever. I have never really done this before. I think it will be a good part of my training. May help me with my ultimate goal of running the 5k. I plan to put the kids down a little early for nap and strapping my IPOD on and going for it. Then I can run my nervous nellies out of my system with a hard workout, jump in the shower and then get dressed for my meeting. My mom is going to leave work early to come to the house and watch my kids. My oldest has the flu so I am still not able to get to the gym.

I am so missing the gym. I miss my Body Flow class so much. I feel like my muscles are wasting away without the weights. I am hoping Caroline stays well and maybe Monday I will be able to get back to the gym???? I want to start my new program. I am so excited about it. I haven't done weights on my own in a really long time. I have really relyed on my trainers. I still have some sessions left, not too many though. I think I will show this new book to Josh and have him help me get started with it. Then I will carry on on my own when my time with him is done....or I will reup with him???? I guess I will see.... do I have the inner strenghth to do this on my own without Josh??? He just pushes me that little bit extra that I couldn't do on my own....I love that. I love having someone to work out with..... I will have tax money available?????? I don't know what I will do.....I guess I will wait and see. I would really like to try and do it on my own....I just don't know if I can?????

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EXITING NEWS--I SIGNED UP FOR MY FIRST RACE!!!!!!!
I found a local running club site. It had all kinds of races in SC listed. I found on locally on July 4th. Its gonna be hot, but it will be in the AM atleast. I felt like I needed a not to far in the future goal to make myself really push. My ultimate goal is to do the Cooper River Bridge Run (next April in Charleston--its a 10K--I cannot imagine--but I have a year!!!). So, July 4th 5k here I come!!!
I found that there is a running club locally that meets on Wed nights and Sat am. I think once I complete my C25k program and can actually run the entire 5k, not having to walk any, I may try and join up with them on Wed evenings. I think it would be great to have a group to run with, for encouragement especially. I also found a race in the fall in Durham, NC that is a trail run 5k. I am going to try and get a friend to go and run that one with me. I love Raleigh and that would be a great fall goal I think!!! I will probably try and do the Breast cancer race in Charleston too. I have walked that one in the past, but maybe this time I will run it!!! I think I will see if my husband wants to do the local one with me. He will of course run it way way faster than me, but it would still be fun to do it together. I am so excited that I actually put down money toward an actual date, an ACTUAL RACE!!! JULY 4th ERIKA! Gotta get in gear and train train train now. I will do this. I will run the whole race. I will be a runner yet!!!!