I am a worrier. My challenge daily to myself is to continue to daily place my trust in the Lord. I know He has control of my life. I know everything I do has been ordained by HIm. This gives me great comfort. However, being human I daily struggle with the desire to do everything on my own and the stresses and anxieties of leaning only on myself......I am only human. Thankfully my Jesus knows this of me and forgives me of it. As I have been faced with this major illness in the last 6 months I teeterd between Patience and trust and head held hight knowing it would all work out-Positive attitude, and the opposite--this is never going to improve, I will always be living with this, how can this be?????? mentality. I know i AM STRONGER THAN THAT THOUGH AND I DID MAKE IT THROUGH. i think i learned a lot and came out of it an even stronger person.
That being said . I go back to work tongight at 7pm for the first time in over 6 months. I am way more nervous that I expected to me. I am kinda freakin out last night and today. My husband acutally took today off to be with me. So fellow christians, I would love if you would pray for me tonight if you think about it. I am sure I will be fine once I am there and in the swing of things, I am really not sure why I am so freaking out now. I didn't expect this. I am praying for a calm to come over me, for me to find peace before I head in at 7pm.
Thanks frineds for listening and the prayers I knwo you will lift up for me