Wednesday, Jun 13 2012 - The Road Not Taken
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There is a limit to how much soul searching one person can do. I mean really, what the hell am I looking for? More reasons not to get my act together; More ways to toss and turn at night because I cant get comfortable; More rationalization that my health really isnt in jeopardy; More excuses to put off until tomorrow what I damn well know I have to do today?
Being on a diet, trying to change the way I eat and turning good food choices into my lifestyle has been a part of my life for as long as I can remember. I am addicted to finding the next big thing in dieting; to trying just one more time to lose weight once and for all. I have been there and done that a thousand times and look at me? I am still not healthy. I am still not at the weight I should be. I am the bad cholesterol in my own life.
But I believe I am a positive person so here I am trying again. As often as my weight loss plans fail, at some point I am always ready to jump right back into the fire and start over. I admit that sometimes this never ending, lifelong war I wage with my weight seems doomed. I dont want it to be, but lets face it the odds are against me. I will be 58 in a couple of months. I feel those warning words it gets harder as you get older laughing at me as my struggle to get control gets harder and harder and harder. Yet the positive person in me is fighting back.
There is still some spunk left in these old bones. I am not ready to throw in the proverbial towel and call it a life. I am not done yet. I am not done trying. I refuse to accept failure. A healthy weight is somewhere in my future. It has to be. The road not taken is paved with defeat and I just wont go there.