I am finely back on track after making a choice to omit my pain medication from my life. I have improved my health to the point I felt it was no longer needed. I thought it was so sweet when my Dr gave me my step-down instructions and patted me on my knee on his way out of the room. Well that no so addictive tramadol i was taking turned out to give me saver withdrawals for thirty days free of the drug, that’s not counting the step down which was no vacation. I have never done drugs nor do I drink, so I was set back by this, so ill for days. First no eating could happen and at my worst day I had fifteen showers and went days at a time with no sleep. I could not even sit still, much less think and movies and such were out, too much input for my brain. Of course then the eating set in, I was ravenous all the time. I was glad I lost the weight from not being able to keep any thing down or in. SO my weight gane now was offset by that. Yet it was hard to get the mindset needed to get back on track with my healthy eating plan, I felt so depressed and ashamed. I do not even know why I had those deep feelings of sadness. Yet I kept going to the gym, swimming and getting outside in the sun when i could as my sleeping pattern is still off, not as badly, but not right yet. Well just wanted to let all know I am back and will be making better progress now.