picture: me and carlos in V.I.P at club LOVE

good morning my calorieking crowd! i'm sorry it's taken me months to post/update, but i'm back and this time, it's for good! i've been so busy with other things/situations but realize i MUST make time for calorieking, fitness and nutrition. i was doing so good and was proud of myself at the begining of the summer but found ways and excuses to dig myself back into my old habits. i let my personal life consume me and wasn't making healthy choices. since my last post tons has happened! denita came to visit for a week back in july (one of the best trips ever), i started "team weight loss" at my gym, i ended a couple of friendships that were doomed from the start, i've become closer to my brother and his friends and i've become more comfortable with my budget. can i just say, "I HATE BEING AN ADULT!" it seems like my worries have gone from who likes me to how can i afford this bill.

other than that mumbo jumbo, i've been the same ol' me. i used to be the type of girl that HAD to have a crush to validate my existence, but i've changed drastically in that department. me and my ex cut off all communication about a year ago and since then i've not been ready to start anything new. i dated and had my fun but i knew it wasn't me. jumping from crush to crush wasn't helping me heal and just created more stress, drama and insecurity. i watched friends ruin their family life, financial well-being and friendships by staying in unhealthy relationships and didn't want to mimic their actions. since i had been in their situation i tried guiding them towards self-acceptance but they thought it was jealousy so we went our seperate ways. i'm no longer the friend that dishes out advice...i listen and keep an open mind. i'm trying to live my life for me and only allowing God and my family judge my actions. i even let go of some immaturity lurking in my life (example: taking out my labret ring and cutting back on $400 purses). i've found new friendships in my brother's friends and i'm glad things have fallen into place. they are all wonderful people and have accepted me wholeheartedly. this weekend we're hoping to go to atlantic city in celebration of two birthdays (caroline and tammy). i'll be sure to post tomorrow with more permanent plans.

for now, just welcome the improved, healthier amie! denita and i have promised to push each other and make sure we get back on track with our goals. i would hate to be digging an early grave because there's too much out there that i haven't enjoyed or been a part of yet. i also have a doctor's appointment on thursday so hopefully the work outs have paid off with lower cholesterol and blood sugar results. i'll keep everyone posted!

p.s. - the boy in the picture above is my best friend, jose's, brother. wonderful people, perfect night, lasting memories! =)