Well, I am getting good at logging my food. Now I just have to get better at eating healthy. I have a good shopping list made with veggies, low fat cheese and low fat meats, I just need to go get it. I am going to go shopping tomorrow since I usually shop at Super Wal-mart and it is probably packed on a Sunday afternoon. Monday will be much more managable. My husband just ordered a pizza from Pizza Hut. It's what's for lunch, so I ate 2 pieces. I shouldn't do that anymore. After he called them and I knew it was coming, I started to look around for something healthy to have instead. After about 2 seconds of looking I decided I would have only one piece and that won't be that bad. When it was time to only have one, I had two. Somehow I rationalized with myself and decided tomorrow, once I get a house full of healthy choices, I will do better. I guess I have to live with that decision now. I will do better starting right now. I have chicken breast, mushrooms and brown rice picked for dinner tonight. I want to be proud of myself.

I think I have a rationalization or excuse for everything. I need to get rid of that attitude, start being accountable for the junk I put in my mouth and lose this weight for good. At this point, I can see that I am taking time off of my life with every slice of pizza. (it was stuffed crust, to make it worse)

For the few days that I have logged food, I noticed my Saturated Fats are off the charts. Even the computer is trying to tell me I eat unsafe levels of the stuff. I have had high cholesterol since I was young (and thin), so I think it is hereditary. I am just making matters worse by being abusive to my body.

I'm working it out. Slowly. I have to give myself credit for the little bit that I have done so far, such as logging the crap that I am eating.