I'm not feeling well today...just a PMS thing, so I know it will pass soon. Slowly, I am getting back on track with logging food and staying within my limits. The holidays threw me off a little, but I'm back on track. I was going to go walking/jogging today, but the PMS gods told me not to. Plus, we are under a freeze warning and I can feel it coming....it was 80 degrees just a day or so ago. I guess we are getting our winter...finally. I am so spoiled.

Speaking of winter.....

I just saw the movie Sicko. What an eye opener! It made me want to move to Canada. It's crazy how you can go into debt from a medical condition, even if you are insured. I have been paying hundreds of dollars a month for years and years, to have my family fully insured, and to see that some things can be denied even if they are necessary......it just makes me crazy. My husband doesn't believe in insurance, he thinks it's a rip-off. I make him get it for us......maybe he's right. You should see that movie!

Canada is pretty cold, though....maybe I need to move to France instead. Naaaa, too far from family. Canada, here we come. Maybe after I am done with school and my son is done with highschool, we'll think about it. I just can't even imagine not getting some sort of treatment because of lack of money.

Speaking of medical treatment.....

My mother just got back from New Jersey, visiting her sister (My Aunt who was just diagnosed with Pancreatic Cancer). My mom said she doubts that she will have her sister for very much longer. The doctor said she had 2 years left if she did Chemo, but my mom said she looks so skinny and sick, 3 months sounds more realistic. They both (my mom and aunt) recently watched my grandfather (their dad) wither away from cancer. It's so sad. My grandmother lives here in Florida and was not planning on a trip to NJ, but I think we are going to talk her into it. I don't think I can make myself go, but I am just a neice who hasn't seen her in years anyway. I think it's important for my grandmother to get there in time to say goodbye to her daughter. I know she wants to, but she is 81years old and it will be hard. Also, my aunt's oldest daughter is missing....on purpose....in California somewhere and she really should know that her mother is passing away. She is the kind of person who lives "underground" with no phone number, ect.

Her name is Bonnie Goins, her husband's name is Donald Goins, they have 4 or 5 children, I have only met 2 of them, Jeremia (sp?) and Eva. If anyone in California can find them, please tell Bonnie to call her mother, soon.

I have another cousin trying to get the authorities in the county of Bonnie's last known address to try to locate her if she is still there. I don't know how that is going to work, but the last resort is to hire a PI to find her. This is family drama I am removed from, thank goodness.

That's enough for now, I hope everyone is having a good day.