ROCK ON!!

Despite having a weekend of pretty much abandonement... (last weekend with Matty) I lost half a pound! That is all I needed oddly enough. Granted, a bigger loss would have rocked, but the fact that I could chill out safely on the weekends the last couple of weeks and just buckle down throughout the weekdays and still lose a half pound is so reassuring. At least I didn't lose any ground!

Last night...

I had almost signed the day off as a total loss. I was agitated because of some -heads at work.... and then a co-worker brought me a 'big' bag of hershey's miniatures because I looked 'stressed'. Do you want to see stressed!? Then go ahead and give me a bag of f*#@ing chocolate, I'll show you stressed!

So I ate some... yes, 'some' = too many. As usual I was already planning my demise for the evening... Here I was by myself.. with some great choices for blowing the evening. Of course this included going home to watch a movie and do as little physical activity as possible... why not wallow in my pathetic, lonely attitude??
I stopped at the tanning bed ( I know, I know ) and as I 'baked' I talked myself out of going to Damon's or Max & Erma's for something wicked at least 3 times. Then I started talking myself out of getting a pint of Graeter's Black Raspberry & Chip to take home at least 3 times....
When I came out of the tanning shop there was a nice cool breeze ( haven't felt one of those since April ) and I was totally sure of what I would do for the evening....

I got home, went directly downstairs, put on my running clothes, blasted my MP3 and knocked out 3.5 miles! Then I dragged the lawn mower out of the shed and mowed the front & back lawns of ours and the neighbor's since there was no way I was going to get to them till the middle of next week.

I wasn't hungry so I took a long, hot shower... washed, dried and folded a load of laundry while watching an episode of Law & Order SVU. I talked to Matt's uncle M. and chatted with my Dad and then climbed the stairs to talk to Matty on the phone while rolling into bed....

The worst of days ended up pretty damn great and all because I didn't give in. I am so very proud of myself.

Today...

Got up at 5am and chatted with Matty.... then ran 5 miles according to the workout plan.

On my way out the door 'B' offered me a fresh chocolate chip cookie right off the pan and I passed it up. (Her cookies are sinful) I stopped at McD's for my daily cup of regular coffee and here I am at my desk, um, working away

It's Friday and I get to wear jeans so the world is at peace in my own head Actually I could wear jeans every day... some here do... but I don't think it's all that appropriate... I am wearing my new pink OSU ball cap. Which everybody likes

Moving on....

It's going to be a crazy day and a crazier weekend so off we go!!!! Hugs to all...

I miss & love you Matty more than I could ever say... 6 days till Matty!!

Love, RMM
813 miles in 2006... 187 to go!!
WW PTS = 22

3:30pm I really miss Matty right now.....