I'm at Matty's work playing on CK while he is doing some work. Since his boss (who lost his son the other night) won't be in for awhile Matty is having to keep up with everything... He doesn't mind. He really likes his job. We are really close with the family and this has been so very hard...

We have been over to the house the last two nights and will head over tonight later. Last night we were going through family pictures picking out good ones of Mike for the funeral. It was a really good time to spend with them and it was nice to see all the old memories together.

I went over on cal yesterday because I didn't plan on eating dinner at the house and I ate a bowl of chili at our house first....

Matty is trying to help me stay on track and I am trying to listen without getting an attitude. Honey, I just know how hard you have worked to get some of the weight off and if you come through a pregnancy with a lot of weight you will be so upset.... He's absolutely right of course but dammit!

The cousin's wedding in AL is next weekend... Hoping to sneak Nancy Jo's way for a meal and visit but I have no idea what family obligations there will be. It will be fun to travel together... We haven't really gone very far on a trip together. I know, we are boring... Just hunting trips and visiting friends... but we love it.

I don't seem to have any crazy food cravings or other crazy symptoms of pregnancy except EXTREME SENSITIVITY and EMOTIONAL OVERLOAD!! I want to cry about everything and I ask Matty 5 times a day if he finds me attractive anymore. Seriously. I feel like a totally wacky person and I better snap out of this.

Of course the SIL's Christmas day suicide attempt and the friend diagnosed with brain cancer and the friends losing their 23 yr old son this week might be affecting me. {{{BIG sigh...}}}

I'm really OK, just ready for the sun to come back out. I am sure that after the first Dr visit I will be feeling better about Eggbert's security and after the first ultrasound (Groundhog day!!) I will be much better...

I'm sure that another huge factor is that I have been SO tired I have not been running and that is a huge mood booster for me. Shame on me! What a waste of great weather!!

Alrighty... I'm off to a better day that started with sleeping in and hubby bringing me a homemade breakfast burrito and coffee in bed!!

Love and hugs!! B