BECKAMARIE's CalorieKing blog
Tuesday, Jan 9 2007 - Sorry about yesterday....
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I should have gotten up extra early to blog from home before the day but I am so sleepy lately and crave my moments of shut eye so I didn't....
We had to be at the funeral home before 9 as Matt was a pall bearer for Michael... I am going to try to get this all out without crying at my desk... so bear with me... and let me start by saying thank you to each and every one of you for being so supportive and caring.
The staff at the funeral home was wonderful and they did everything possible to make the family comfortable and reassured. We got to look at Michael's casket one more time and say goodbye. We all said a prayer and the funeral director prayed.
The funeral service was a full mass and was lovely as well. Being so young (Michael was 23) he had several friends there and that made his Mom very happy. Everyone really liked him and he really was just everyone's buddy.
Michael tried to hide alot of his major depression with cocaine use and alcohol. I think he was ashamed of being depressed and didn't want to be under it's influence any longer or have to keep hiding his struggle with it or any of his dependencies....
The President and VP of the company that Matty (and obviously his boss) works for flew in from CT for the funeral which was very nice.
Matt and I went back to the funeral home after the funeral to gather up the plants and other items. Then we all went back to the house for the afternoon.... I was hoping that the Ohio State game would be a cheery distraction but that wasn't happening. Sheesh. What a disaster. I was relieved when Matt was ready to go home at half-time. It was after 10 at that point and I was falling asleep...
We have been over there every night since the accident and I think I am getting a scratchy throat and Matt is exhausted so we are staying in tonight... (well, me after Bible Study...
) It's so hard to leave them alone. 
I have one statement... No parent should ever have to outlive their children. I'm sure many of you have felt this way before.
So, it's back to the grind and I have much to do to catch up from yesterday!! I'll try to catch up on the threads...
PS ... Eggbert update: Have a much harder time getting my breath on runs... I spoke to a friend the other day who is a running Mama and she had that problem too... She said she never went out farther than 4 or 5 miles but she ran till about 7 mo. That sounds like the plan I had so I feel good about that!
Ran 8 miles on Sunday and it was kind of tough....
**By the way.. I would just like to add here that watching my husband reach out to his boss as a brother and calling on all the people he has to support the family and swallowing any manly bravado and just holding his boss in his arms is the most honorable thing I have ever witnessed him doing. A man of such valuable worth and respect is hard to find in these days and I am continually in awe of this blessing that God has given to me. He has been a pillar of support to many of us this weekend and yet has shed his share of tears in private. I love him.
We had to be at the funeral home before 9 as Matt was a pall bearer for Michael... I am going to try to get this all out without crying at my desk... so bear with me... and let me start by saying thank you to each and every one of you for being so supportive and caring.
The staff at the funeral home was wonderful and they did everything possible to make the family comfortable and reassured. We got to look at Michael's casket one more time and say goodbye. We all said a prayer and the funeral director prayed.
The funeral service was a full mass and was lovely as well. Being so young (Michael was 23) he had several friends there and that made his Mom very happy. Everyone really liked him and he really was just everyone's buddy.
Michael tried to hide alot of his major depression with cocaine use and alcohol. I think he was ashamed of being depressed and didn't want to be under it's influence any longer or have to keep hiding his struggle with it or any of his dependencies....
The President and VP of the company that Matty (and obviously his boss) works for flew in from CT for the funeral which was very nice.
Matt and I went back to the funeral home after the funeral to gather up the plants and other items. Then we all went back to the house for the afternoon.... I was hoping that the Ohio State game would be a cheery distraction but that wasn't happening. Sheesh. What a disaster. I was relieved when Matt was ready to go home at half-time. It was after 10 at that point and I was falling asleep...
We have been over there every night since the accident and I think I am getting a scratchy throat and Matt is exhausted so we are staying in tonight... (well, me after Bible Study...
) It's so hard to leave them alone. I have one statement... No parent should ever have to outlive their children. I'm sure many of you have felt this way before.
So, it's back to the grind and I have much to do to catch up from yesterday!! I'll try to catch up on the threads...
PS ... Eggbert update: Have a much harder time getting my breath on runs... I spoke to a friend the other day who is a running Mama and she had that problem too... She said she never went out farther than 4 or 5 miles but she ran till about 7 mo. That sounds like the plan I had so I feel good about that!
Ran 8 miles on Sunday and it was kind of tough....
**By the way.. I would just like to add here that watching my husband reach out to his boss as a brother and calling on all the people he has to support the family and swallowing any manly bravado and just holding his boss in his arms is the most honorable thing I have ever witnessed him doing. A man of such valuable worth and respect is hard to find in these days and I am continually in awe of this blessing that God has given to me. He has been a pillar of support to many of us this weekend and yet has shed his share of tears in private. I love him.
21 comments so far.
21.
a decade ago
The first trimester you will be EXHAUSTED beyond belief. But after that... I never felt so good or had so much energy!! And food.... I was pregnant during garden time.... Green beans, corn, and tomatoes were NEVER better than 1984 is all I can say!!!
by 1LILYDALE2
20.
a decade ago
It's you!!!! You're the new preggers girl I'm been trying to track down! Yay! Congrats!
by GINAMARIE80
19.
a decade ago
Hugs to you! It often seems that through some of our darkest times we see some of our most precious blessings! Take care of yourself and get some rest.
:love:
by TESSINTEXAS
18.
a decade ago
hugs!!
by CHELSEA
17.
a decade ago
Saturday's blog made up for Monday's miss
;). I know you have been through a lot the last several weeks. Hold strong my dear friend. I will be thinking about you and Matt. 
:love: to Eggbert. 
:hi: to Matt!!
by ANEWME2BE
16.
a decade ago
the game was a disappointment. On a side note, you're an awesome person with a great heart
:love: Have a wonderful day!
by DBRAZIEL
15.
a decade ago
Yeah, about that Matty
:love:? You should keep him. ... The first trimester is an energy suck. Once you hit week 12 or so, you'll feel like a new woman. My doc referred to the 2nd trimester as the "gravy days." You've never felt so good in your whole life. 
=D
by EPMOMMA
14.
a decade ago
God has blessed you with a fine man and soon a wonderful baby by which all of it you deserve.
:heart1:
:kiss:
by MA
13.
a decade ago
B!!! I'm so sorry that things have been rough for you and Matty. He truly does sound like a marvelous man...i'd really like to meet him one day. You two are some of the most awesome people I "know". Be safe on your runs and give little Eggbert a rub for me!
:kiss:
by JENNSTARR054
12.
a decade ago
by BUN201
11.
a decade ago
by JNY1179
10.
a decade ago
Eggbert, that's so cute! Sorry about the game last night, what a mess.
:( Glad to see you back.
by CYNTHIALS
9.
a decade ago
I think my mom ran (and went skiing) when she was pregnant with me until very close to her delivery date. I was born over a month premature, but I didn't need to be put in an incubator or anything, so running must be possible for a while! Sorry your last few days have been so hard. I'm glad you and Matt have each other (and eggbert)
:love:
by SFARRANT
8.
a decade ago
What a lucky woman you are to have such a compassionate hubby!! My prayers are still with you! Take good care of you and your baby!!!
:)
by TATKINSON24
7.
a decade ago
The measure of a man is only truly seen in the way he treats others, when he doesn't know anyone's watching, when he doesn't 'have to' do or say a certain thing. Getting a glimpse of it is a real blessing. He's good fella, that Matty. And you are good friends to care so much for your friends ... and staying home is perfectly acceptable ... they will still feel your thoughts and prayers with them, even if you are not there at their side.
by REV
6.
a decade ago
many
:kiss:es and *hugs* to you. And two extra *hugs* to that awesome hubby and little eggbert!
by LISAH
5.
a decade ago
by LOSEWEIGHTIN10
4.
a decade ago
The exhaustion during my pregnancy kicked my butt! Specially the first Tri.. It took every ounce of me to get through the day It doesnt help that you also are dealing with some great emotional exhaustion as well.. You 2 get some rest tonight It will help a lot! Hope you get caught up on everything.. and good to see you.. Missed you yesterday .
:kiss:
by RAINY
3.
a decade ago
You are a good friend. That poor family.
:kiss: to Eggbert
by PHISH44118
2.
a decade ago
by CHICDIVA
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a decade ago
by ISABELLE82