BECKAMARIE's CalorieKing blog
Wednesday, Jan 31 2007 - Happy 'Hump' Day C- !!!
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LOL... I hate that term 'hump' day but so does Corinne so why would I pass up an opportunity to make her smile? 
OK, I went home last night and climbed into my jammies and then climbed into bed just to put my head down before dinner and I slept straight through the night! I woke up around 10pm and got something to eat but then I went right back to sleep. It was so heavenly and I am not sitting at my desk yawning uncontrollably like yesterday! Matt called me Rip Van Winkle when I got up
I am walking with Emily at lunch and that will be nice... except for the car ride to and from in this -4 degree windchill going on today.
At least the sun is out this morning. 
I was thinking after I got into work how awesome cell phones are. In the course of a normal day I rarely have time to chat on the phone for any length of time between work and life and chores and such. Because of my handy dandy cell phone I can chat for 20 min or so on my way in to work most every day with one of my brothers. What a blessing. I just think that is so awesome.
I went through a couple months without a cell phone last year and I was worried that after that little spell Matty wouldn't call me on his way home most every day anymore... No fears, once we replaced my broken phone he started to call me like clockwork again.
I did OK with food yesterday and sleeping through dinner helped a little... Today I packed apple slices, a handful of grapes and an orange so I am feeling good about my fruit options. I'm not really craving anything in particular yet, thank goodness so no crazy carb rages.. The only thing I have noticed is I want things with strong flavors, like tomato based sauces and salads with bright, flavorful dressings. No clue what that is all about.
I have started taking my pre-natal at night which may be helping as well... the jury is still out on that though...
I had a little melt down on my way home last night... crying to Matty that I felt like I would never get a better job now and I am so happy about the baby but I feel like I stopped any 'career' growth ever in the future... I have been getting vibes that they know about the baby at the job I interviewed for and that may be influencing their decision... It's really not that job specifically, it's just the feeling that at my age I haven't gotten very far in this world and I want us to be comfortable and be able to do more and go more and not have to worry about money. Realistically, I don't suppose anyone ever gets to where they don't worry about money, especially with children around... Maybe it was just a culmination of feelings and being tired. It was nice to let go a little and just cry about it. Poor Matty.
He just stays right there, like my anchor.
If I really look at it I am in a great place to be expecting a baby. Three women in our office have 3 young children and all 3 of them had babies last year... the office is very 'baby' friendly. I have excellent insurance right now and opted to bump up to the pricier plan last summer because it has much better OB coverage... I really should just stay put at least this year and maybe hope for something more flexible after that. I never really gave much thought to being able to stay home with children full time. I would love it but just never thought I would be in that financial situation. Maybe in the next few years I can find something part time or more flexible with not a huge change in pay... That would be nice.
We are saying farewell to one of the engineers here at work today. She is a sweetie. She is from Iraq or Iran (can't remember
) and she wants to go home for awhile and maybe get married... Her family has to bless the union and he is not as educated as her so they frown on the relationship right now. It's really hard to see her struggle with all of it and I wish I could help her more but it seems very complicated. She is not allowed to travel by herself of course so her Mother is going with her. Her entire family came over here with her when she went to school here.
I have managed to keep the 2 poinsettias on my desk alive all winter so far! Amazing, I know.
OK, well, off to work and trying new ways to keep from feeling like throwing up. ha ha
OK, I went home last night and climbed into my jammies and then climbed into bed just to put my head down before dinner and I slept straight through the night! I woke up around 10pm and got something to eat but then I went right back to sleep. It was so heavenly and I am not sitting at my desk yawning uncontrollably like yesterday! Matt called me Rip Van Winkle when I got up
I am walking with Emily at lunch and that will be nice... except for the car ride to and from in this -4 degree windchill going on today.
At least the sun is out this morning. I was thinking after I got into work how awesome cell phones are. In the course of a normal day I rarely have time to chat on the phone for any length of time between work and life and chores and such. Because of my handy dandy cell phone I can chat for 20 min or so on my way in to work most every day with one of my brothers. What a blessing. I just think that is so awesome.
I went through a couple months without a cell phone last year and I was worried that after that little spell Matty wouldn't call me on his way home most every day anymore... No fears, once we replaced my broken phone he started to call me like clockwork again.
I did OK with food yesterday and sleeping through dinner helped a little... Today I packed apple slices, a handful of grapes and an orange so I am feeling good about my fruit options. I'm not really craving anything in particular yet, thank goodness so no crazy carb rages.. The only thing I have noticed is I want things with strong flavors, like tomato based sauces and salads with bright, flavorful dressings. No clue what that is all about.
I have started taking my pre-natal at night which may be helping as well... the jury is still out on that though...
I had a little melt down on my way home last night... crying to Matty that I felt like I would never get a better job now and I am so happy about the baby but I feel like I stopped any 'career' growth ever in the future... I have been getting vibes that they know about the baby at the job I interviewed for and that may be influencing their decision... It's really not that job specifically, it's just the feeling that at my age I haven't gotten very far in this world and I want us to be comfortable and be able to do more and go more and not have to worry about money. Realistically, I don't suppose anyone ever gets to where they don't worry about money, especially with children around... Maybe it was just a culmination of feelings and being tired. It was nice to let go a little and just cry about it. Poor Matty.
He just stays right there, like my anchor.If I really look at it I am in a great place to be expecting a baby. Three women in our office have 3 young children and all 3 of them had babies last year... the office is very 'baby' friendly. I have excellent insurance right now and opted to bump up to the pricier plan last summer because it has much better OB coverage... I really should just stay put at least this year and maybe hope for something more flexible after that. I never really gave much thought to being able to stay home with children full time. I would love it but just never thought I would be in that financial situation. Maybe in the next few years I can find something part time or more flexible with not a huge change in pay... That would be nice.
We are saying farewell to one of the engineers here at work today. She is a sweetie. She is from Iraq or Iran (can't remember
) and she wants to go home for awhile and maybe get married... Her family has to bless the union and he is not as educated as her so they frown on the relationship right now. It's really hard to see her struggle with all of it and I wish I could help her more but it seems very complicated. She is not allowed to travel by herself of course so her Mother is going with her. Her entire family came over here with her when she went to school here. I have managed to keep the 2 poinsettias on my desk alive all winter so far! Amazing, I know.
OK, well, off to work and trying new ways to keep from feeling like throwing up. ha ha
21 comments so far.
21.
a decade ago
I use my cell phone to talk to my parents and aunt in the car too. It is wonderful to use that time for something so important! Sleep well.
:)
by SJ1320
20.
a decade ago
Thanks for the info Becka! You're going to be thee best mommy ever. Everything else will fall into place. Trust me! Either way you won't care when you stare into your little one's eyes. Of course, when the little one is screaming...we won't go there.
=D
by CHICDIVA
19.
a decade ago
by BUN201
18.
a decade ago
You *must* be ready to be a mommy, you're keeping plants alive! And parsnickity ones at that!
by CHELSEA
17.
a decade ago
Oh my - your life is bring back so many memories! When I was pregnant (38 years ago - and yes the wheel had b een invented) I came home from work, ate dinner and fell asleep on the couch every night. My then husband, would wake me up at 11:00 PM and I'd go to bed! That lasted for about 5 months. The meltdowns lasted even longer (see Callie's comment) - but oh lordy, what an absolute joyous celebration the day the kidling arrived. I swear she picked her head up off my tummy on the way out of the delivery room - and smiled at me. I was hooked and have remained so. Probably the thing I consider my greatest "job success" is raising her to be the wonderful, caring, independent, exciting, vibrant woman she is! (ps - that's her in the pic of me in my blog - the other antler wearing person.) <
:love:>
by TGR
16.
a decade ago
sorry you had a meltdown
:( but remember that you are about to bring a LIFE into this world. and then you're gonna raise that life into a good person. that is plenty ambitious. I know, I know ... it's nice to have both career and mom-ness ... and maybe you will. but for now remember that you're doing something good by bringing a kid into a kick-ass family with love and support. as a teacher I can often spot those kids, and I like being able to (since sometimes they're few & far between). I totally don't mean to diminish your concerns, because they're important ones ... but you're doing a good thing here. btw, your sleep sounds fabulous! Mmmm. I 
:love: getting to sleep from a nap into the next morning. LOVE it.
by SFARRANT
15.
a decade ago
I had that career meltdown two weeks ago - and I don't have nearly as good an excuse as you!
=D 
:kiss:
by PDXRUNNER
14.
a decade ago
Have a wonderful day and don't worry about all that other stuff, ..... God watches.
:heart1:
by MA
13.
a decade ago
All perfectly normal feeling Becka. I really like what Dan said, itÂ’s so true.. Keep that in mind.
:kiss:
by RAINY
12.
a decade ago
You think THAT was a melt down? Just wait until month 7.
;) 
=D
by CBL
11.
a decade ago
by ASHLEY82
10.
a decade ago
by ISABELLE82
9.
a decade ago
Meltdowns are ok....I'm just trying to figure out what my excuse is!
:) It's all going to work out and I am the firm believer that all things happen for a reason. If you were to meant to get the other job then you will. It's all good! 
:) You and your hubby sound like perfect matches. I love hearing you talk about him so positively. Much like Cynthia...I hope I can be like that with P. Have a wonderful day today and 
:kiss:es to you and Eggbert.
by LISAH
8.
a decade ago
Happy hump day babes!! I understand how you feel about the baby but you are in a great position now to have the baby where you are and when the bundle is here your opps will open again. Not a permanent stopping point.
:love: you!
by MOM22SONZ
7.
a decade ago
Freak outs are normal. Do you have the book "What to expect when your expecting"? It is pretty informative. I found out that I really wasn't going crazy that my reaction was normal. Good Luck.
by MOM24KIDZ
6.
a decade ago
I heart your positive attitude!!
by RENEERRL
5.
a decade ago
Below is the saying I have on a framed poster in my office. Kind of ironic too since I work in Financial Planning. It has a picture of a boy on the beach looking at the ocean.
"A hundred years from now it will not matter what my bank account was, the sort of house I lived in, or the kind of car I drove...but the world may be different because I was important in the life of a child."
by OBRATS
4.
a decade ago
Aw Becka, meltdowns are ok when you are pregger! I had many of them...crying is the best med!!!! Isn't it amazing how God lets you see that where you are isn't the worst and that maybe later would be a better time for improvement! I love it when I get that kind of
:love: from God! Eat a banana! 
:love:
by LUROX
3.
a decade ago
Ah, the mommy track ... Bekah, it sounds like you work at a *very* family friendly office, which is awesome. Remember that what you are feeling is totally normal and something I think most women go through
:heart1:
by LOSEWEIGHTIN10
2.
a decade ago
You are always so positive about your husband, I love that about you
:) I hope I can always be so positive about my honey.
by CYNTHIALS
1.
a decade ago
Hey first comment. Now I can go back and read.
by OBRATS