Rambling thoughts from a crazy new Mom….

Well it’s day 4 back to work from maternity leave. I was so worried that it wasn’t going to be even doable since up until a week or so ago little Matthew wouldn’t sleep longer than 2 or 3 hours at a time and definitely wouldn’t sleep anywhere but on Mommy at night.
Miraculously he just started sleeping fine in his crib and now pulls 4 and 5 hour stretches of sleep and Mommy is very happy!!
I am tired but not exhausted and tomorrow is Friday so we can take an extra nap on Saturday, me and the monster….

I started out 25 pounds over ideal weight and I gained 60 pounds while pregnant so as Jenny McCarthy so eloquently puts it… I was hoping for a 60 pound baby! :laugh:

Since delivery I have lost 45 pounds! I am very happy and although I have 40 pounds to go it will happen. I am logging religiously and somehow my appetite hasn’t been crazy since giving birth. I am so busy getting ready for the next day in the evenings and feeding him at nights and then working through the day so I can be sure to leave right on time that I don’t have time to be bad. The harder problem has been to eat well and eat enough. But it’s getting there.

He is the most beautiful little boy ever and I couldn’t be happier. Matt and I are taking the little guy down to the farmland that we hunt on next weekend and maybe we will get some hiking in. Hopefully it is pleasant weather and not too cold. He will get to spend the first of many weekends at Uncle John’s and Aunt Connie’s with the horses and the barn cats and the scruffy dog and his grown up cousin Jay.

Leaving him every day has been tearing my heart out. I’m so sad that I miss his best time of the day when he is the most interactive and attentive in the mid-morning. I worry that he will forget who Mommy is. I hate missing every little smile and coo that I used to soak up while I was home with him. I am so glad that I am breastfeeding. It still gives us a little bond. I know that it will all be fine and he will not forget who his Mommy is but I feel like I never see him anymore.

I know that all you parents are going to start grinning right about now but man does a baby wreak havoc on you and hubby’s time together. I completely realize that almost all my time is pulled away to the baby right now and poor hubby is left hanging in the breeze… I hope as he gets bigger we can catch up for lost time. Very soon I think, we will have to set up a regular ‘date’ night. I miss the hubby and I know he misses me…

That’s all the change I have time for right now… Ha ha, plenty more reflection yet to come…

Thank you for all your love and support, my CK friends…