BECKAMARIE's CalorieKing blog
Friday, Mar 14 2008 - Friday
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Matt was out late with friends at a fundraiser and for the first time in my life I declined to go see friends because of how I look. I had other reasons.... I really did need to stop after work and get a tire replaced after hitting a large pothole this week. (welcome to Ohio) And Matty was sick and really did better with Mommy last night... But I would have stayed home no matter what.
How ridiculous and selfish is that?
To stay home because I am so concerned about my own appearance rather than spend the evening with the love of my life and our good friends??? 
I did gain some free time in the evening with Matt away so I logged onto CK and found a thread about hitting rock bottom. I read the entire thread and it brought tears to my eyes.
I would say yes, I have hit rock bottom.
I was 20 lbs over goal weight when I got pregnant but there is no excuse for the weight I gained while pregnant. Not all of it anyway. And yes, I have had to keep up my calories to breastfeed so it's not like I have been a total failure these last 7 months after Matty was born but this is it.
I am only taking the stairs at work from here on out (and that's a lot of stairs...
)and I am logging every calorie that I consume.
There is a significant allowance for breastfeeding but I'm not going to try to undercut it like I normally would. I'll stick to the suggested calories this week and then see how it goes. If I need to drop 100 calories after a week then I will but I am not going to try to eat like I would if I wasn't feeding Matty.
I'm happy about all this and I feel good.
So here we go......
How ridiculous and selfish is that?
To stay home because I am so concerned about my own appearance rather than spend the evening with the love of my life and our good friends??? I did gain some free time in the evening with Matt away so I logged onto CK and found a thread about hitting rock bottom. I read the entire thread and it brought tears to my eyes.
I would say yes, I have hit rock bottom.
I was 20 lbs over goal weight when I got pregnant but there is no excuse for the weight I gained while pregnant. Not all of it anyway. And yes, I have had to keep up my calories to breastfeed so it's not like I have been a total failure these last 7 months after Matty was born but this is it.
I am only taking the stairs at work from here on out (and that's a lot of stairs...
)and I am logging every calorie that I consume.There is a significant allowance for breastfeeding but I'm not going to try to undercut it like I normally would. I'll stick to the suggested calories this week and then see how it goes. If I need to drop 100 calories after a week then I will but I am not going to try to eat like I would if I wasn't feeding Matty.
I'm happy about all this and I feel good.
So here we go......
14 comments so far.
14.
a decade ago
What a beautiful little boy! You're smart to recognize that avoiding social situations is a slippery slope, its good that you came here instead! You will do great!
by NMA5632
13.
a decade ago
Welcome back! He's totally adorable. I can't wait for Daniel to be able to pose like that -- our last picture taking was not fun.
by HOCKEYFAN7
12.
a decade ago
first of all, welcome back
:kiss: and B, you've done it once ... you can do it again. 
:love:
by SFARRANT
11.
a decade ago
Holy bajeez that boy is CUH-YOOT. Nice to see 'round these parts again - and you'll see there's lots of us right here (still) with you.
:kiss:
by REV
10.
a decade ago
When I was pregnant with Brooke I totally blew up. I don't even know how much I gained, I didn't listen when they weighed me at the Dr. office.
:nono5: Sooooooooooo glad to see you back 
:kiss:
by AMANDALCB
9.
a decade ago
A beautiful baby boy! Welcome back to the "CK-way" -- you'll get back to where you were -- it might not be as fast as you want it to be (like, overnight if you were to ask me!!), but just keep doing what you know worked for you in the past!
by MAYASMOM
8.
a decade ago
B!!!! Welcome back...and just look at the handsome little Matty! I'm so glad you are back with us...we're all crawling up from the bottom and we'll be here with you and together!
:love: ya!
by LUROX
7.
a decade ago
Matty is beautiful. I'm so happy you have been able to continue nursing. And I'm happy that you are back here. We'll be here to support you though this.
:love:
by EPMOMMA
6.
a decade ago
No what else is a great way to add some no brainer exercise is parking a little farther away each day. Heck, with what I lugg for a laptop and a purse and my lunch, its like working out with weights!
Rock bottom is hard but the good thing is that you've got something to push off from to get out. Logging will really help and make you feel like you're in control. If you are anything like my friend with a little one whose still breast feeling part of her feels like her life is out of her hands a bit.
And god! Is he a little charmer!!
Seadragon
by SEADRAGON
5.
a decade ago
You have a plan of action and the desire to follow through...you can do it!
by XSMOKER
4.
a decade ago
OMG! Look at the little pumpkin!
:love: 
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:bigeyes3: He is DARLING B! 
:kiss:
:hi: Welcome to rock bottom! I am there myself. Grab my hand and let's crawl out together shall we. Love and miss you! Glad to see you! 
:kiss:
Hi!
by MOM22SONZ
3.
a decade ago
Welcome back, girl. I can't believe it's been 7 months already!!
:afraid4:
by CYNTHIALS
2.
a decade ago
You're back and look at little Matty!!! You can do this sweetie!
by CHELSEA
1.
a decade ago
Oh Becka!
:love: you can do it. Matty is so adorable!!!!! Welcome back 
:kiss:
by JNY1179