So I think I finnaly get it. The trying weight loss and keep off life struggel. My husband was on vacation this week and I am so happy that he is back to work. Not that I did not enjoy him being home, but he is truly a recking ball to my healther eating life style. This is a man who can eat anything he could dream of and still maintain or even loose weight. I have eaten like I did before and am truly hateing myself for doing it. He started back to work today and yet I still used this evening to eat poorly. Pizza with a side of hot bufflo wings. Who needs a side with pizza? AArg.... Thank god I got the call from the Doc's office about changing my appointment this friday. I am not prepaired to answer to him about my minor weight stall if not gain. I knew it was going to happen, I just didnt think it was going to happen to me! I had considerd not seeing him this month at all because of my lack of self control. Specialy sence I just found out that he is starting to train for the Iron Man competition. BUT...if he is to be my motovation re-kindler then I have to see him and take the advice he may have for me. I assume that he has been waiting for this time to happen and has seen it before so he should have some advice.
I came down with a nasty cold toward the end of this week and have not been able to work out. I tried on thursday and thought my lungs would fly out of my mouth. I got a whopping 300 cals done on the arc trainer then half ass'ed it on the weights. I have not been back sence. I was thinking about going tomarrow but I am still coughing up my lungs and don't know how that will play out.
I need to hit the store and stock up on my special low cal options so that there the first choice when I feel the urge and I need to start tracking what I am eating agian. I took a month off of writing down what I eat to see if I could handle it alone, so to speak... I can see I am not ready for that step yet.
Goals:
Limit eating out
Get to gym 3 times this week
stock home with low cal options
start logging my food intake again

I feel bad when I over eat!
I feel bad when I choose bad food!
I feel bad when my stomach hurts from my food choices!
I feel bad when I have no energy because of my food choices!
I feel bad when I don't make it to the gym!

Lets get it started in he'a, I need to use the music of my mind to keep me dancing!