You know, I like getting all my green marks just as much as the next person, but I almost never get my green mark for net calories. Why does CK give you target food calories and target excersice, yet when you meet them you don't get your net calories mark??? If I eat more calories to get my net calorie mark, I lose my food calories mark....They should fix that...or I should get over my need for approval, right? LOL

Okay so when we got home last night, my curtains that I had ordered where waiting on my front porch. I was sooooo excited! J C Penney said it would take 6 weeks to get them but it didn't even take 4. They look great. Now I just need to order the valances when I see a great sale in the paper to complete the look. I've never had 9' curtains before in any house I have lived in, but it is very elegant looking and they take up a lot of the echo in that part of the house!

I feel amazing. We went to this fantastic little family owned pizza place in the area last night (one of our favorite family places). It feels like you are sitting in your own home eating--it is great. They have wonderful pizza. I usually get the small 10" special and have been known to eat the whole thing. I barely made it through half and I just didn't feel like having anymore of it. I wasn't full, bloated, stuffed, or uncomfortable. I just wasn't hungry anymore and I quit eating. On top of that, Scott had eaten his entire 10" before I could even finish half of mine. (Of course, he was feeling a little over-full later in the evening.) It feels great to be able to enjoy my food and to just stop eating when I am not hungry. I usually eat either until my plate is empty, or I am about to bust at the seams, and at a fairly brisk pace. Sometimes it amazes me how long my up-bringing haunts me!!!

Work is getting me a little down today. I clocked in at a whole 5 minutes of work yesterday. So far today, up to a whopping 45 seconds. How much longer can I take this torture? I launched a new program yesterday (which accounted for my 5 minutes) and I have already received interest in it. However, my "Boss" hasn't approved any of the agreements, price lists, or anything. They want to guage my performance on how many people I can recruit into this new program, but I don't have the freekin' stuff I need to actually sign someone up. What agreement are they going to sign??? On a bleeping piece of toilet paper? Just agree to sign up but not know what they are signing up for??? Who in their right freekin' mind would do somthing that rediculous??? Okay, I just needed to vent. I had a meeting at 11AM scheduled with the boss and guess what? He blew it off, again.

Where else can I get paid almost $200 for a minute of work, right? I guess I should keep in all in perspective. I can no longer attach my sense of self to my success in my career, as I have always done before. I can be thankful for that.....this sucks....

Update: Okay, maybe I have to retract some of my venting from earlier. I was actually able to get someone to verbally agree to my hypothetical progam today and one of our salespeople is going to do a demo tomorrow morning. I guess this one is either desperate or I was able to relay enough trust to convince him that we weren't going to screw him over. It amazes me, in todays scum-bag world, that any trust can be established in business, anyway....simply amazing...I hope my boss doesn't end up screwing him. He was a nice, trusting, guy.