I think I am going to tell the boss that I need to go back and do the job I was originally hired to do. His view of this program that I am supposed to be in charge of is completely different from what is normal and expected in the industry. I am not the right person to do his version. I am the right person to do the standard version. He made a really ugly comment to me this morning about our meeting not happeneing yesterday. I don't want to work with him. I want to go back working under the other guy I was working for. I LOVE my old boss!

So...I'll either be unemployed this afternoon or back in my old saddle. If this conversation doesn't happen today, it will happen sooner or later, anyway. I'm all for getting dirty laundry aired! Wish me luck.

Update: Well, the boss man was in a more reasonable frame of mind just now. We had a little chitty-chat about my position. He didn't feel compelled to put me back in my old job, or to fire me. Instead, he took the partnership approach. I know it is a crock, as he is not interested in anyone's opinion/input but his own. I think his expectations are a little more grounded, now. Wonder how long that will last? We came to terms on the meeting issue, and he was almost <gasp> tender. I wanted to vomit.

*My job* I suppose I must find some way to spend eight hours of my day. And, we do live in a society that requires you have money. I will disengage my brain, my personality, and my opinions and fill my time with a black and white task for eight hours a day, Monday through Friday. This task does not require I do anything more than follow a recipe. I don't have to care where the ingredients came from, who decided how much of what ingredients must go in, or even what the end results are. My task is to take the given recipe and execute it. And get paid pretty darn well for it. I can think of this as a new skill to master. I'll call it "disengagement." Apparently you can get paid well once you master that skill. I wonder if I can put that new skill on my resume, like I can put "Self Starter" on there. Hmmm....I qualified for MENSA and I got A's in college. Ah, who cares about having a brain and a great personality???

I just didn't show up for work last Monday or Friday. Didn't request vacation, didn't call in sick...guess what? No one noticed I wasn't there.

I am hungry. I didn't get my cottage cheese this morning. I let hubby have the last one. MUST.GO.SHOPPING.

More: I am really happy that today is gym day. I love gym days. We are starting to meet people there, too. It is nice. I'm hoping to get above my 20 lb total loss tonight. Even 20.25 will be enough!!! By my new calculations, I should be losing approximately 0.6 lbs per day. I'm anxious to see where I am really am.

From my math, it looks like my body needs 3733 calories per day to maintain my weight at my current activity level, and muscle mass. Geez, that is a lot of calories! I take comfort in the fact that I can eat up to 3733 calories per day and not gain weight. I know I will never eat those kind of calories again so I should continue to see a loss without much "effort" so to speak.

I got some good news yesterday, my tennants aren't going to be able to move out until,at least, the middle of April. So, I won't have to go to Dallas two weekends in a row.