What a busy day, so far. I have a ton of work to do today and I lost four hours dealing with the social security office with Scott this morning. I'll be glad when this crap is over.

I ate too much food for lunch. My body told me to stop eating at 1/3 of my sandwich but I made myself eat half because my calorie counting said I needed to eat half. I think I am going to try eating according to what my body says, regardless of what the calorie counting says and see what happens. My body seems to be more accurate.

I can tell the difference between what I want because it tastes good in my memory versus what my body wants and needs for fuel. I have been quite successful at just taking small tastes of the stuff I want to taste. Like having two french fries, or one piece of chocolate, or one bite of this or that just to taste it. If I sat down and ate a bunch of any of these things, I would feel horrible afterward. The idea of eating an entire order of fries just grosses me out.

I think I'll start April 1 and try that whole month of April and see what happens. If I still keep up my current 3 lb per week loss, I will go with my body signals and just log everything afterward. This will be interesting.

Tonight is gym day. I hope Scott's friend is there so I can workout in complete contentment.

Oh yeah, I forgot to confess my "bi-polar" episode from yesterday. I got a coupon in e-mail from one of the stores I buy my clothes from. I decided to check out bras online and, for kicks, looked at the price of the slacks that I usually buy. They had them on sale online for 2 for $59.99 (They are $49.99 each at the store) plus I had a 33% discount coupon. I WAS STOKED. So, I bought 4 pair that are two sizes smaller than my current slacks that are baggy, and I bought 2 pair that are 4 sizes smaller than the existing slacks (I had to spend at least a certain dollar amount to get to use the coupon). I had tried on the 2 sizes smaller slacks at the store when I went a few weeks ago. They were tight, but I got them on. By the time they arrive and we do laundry, they ought to fit a bit better.

At checkout it said that I had saved over $170.00. Yeah baby! Not that I would have paid that much for them, anyway. LOL. I was sooo excited so I called up prince charming and told him about it. He just doesn't get excited about getting great deals. But he loves me anyway.

Update: I know this to be true: If there is something that makes a person "uncomfortable" then my experience has shown me that the "thing" that makes the person feel that way is something that person needs to explore on a deeper level. That is a sign, if you will, that the "thing" is not quite settled inside of your intellect/spirit/soul/whatever. If the "thing" was settled inside of you, you would have peace with it. Much like when you accept that you are only 5 ' 4" tall (or whatever). The "thing" becomes something that just *is* and you will no longer find yourself "uncomfortable" with it.

Take those opportunities from your emotional/intellectual selves to expand YOUR understanding of this precious, diverse world we live in. Don't cover up these special opportunities for growth with fear, hate, grief, righteousness, or whatever other emotions you may be experiencing, over the thing that makes you uncomfortable. Take a chance and grow a little.