I am feeling especially positive about my body this morning. I am wearing one of the new tops I found last week that actully fits me well and I feel pretty.

I am also feeling hungry and it is only 11AM. The cheerios didn't last too long. Hopefully the 1/2 chicken breast and rice pilaf will tie me over for a few hours. I am having my doubts right now. I wish I had some vegetables to go with it. Why didn't I add some frozen veggies? The thought crossed my mind but I didn't act. Shame on me! Perhaps a trip to the store for some baby carrots is in my immediate future? Yeah, that sounds good...

Update: Went to lunch early only to find a big ol' tray of fresh veggies on the lunchroom table. Yay! I am very satiated right now and will probably be that way the remainder of the evening. I love veggies.

My thoughts on toxic people...I read some people's blogs regularly. Others I read periodically. I am stricken today by people who hang out with toxic people. These are choices we make. No one forces us to spend time with toxic people. We decide to, or not to, do it.

Given the choice between spending time with a toxic person and not spending time with a toxic person, which would you choose? That seems like the simplest of questions to me. This is one of those things about people I can not comprehend. I don't care if that toxic person has my genes, is the person who signs my paycheck, or is the last person on the face of the world, I would choose to NOT spend my precious life moments with that toxic person. Where is the value? How in the world could that benefit me and my existence?

Toxic people drain you of your happiness, your fortitude, your joy, your eqilibrium, your purpose, your spirit and your overall will to live in some cases. Maybe this is a type of suicidal behavior? I just don't get it.

There is not one single person alive who has the right to take those things from me. They are mine to choose to posess or to choose to give away. Either way, they are mine and I get to choose what to do with them. Why is that so hard to understand? My sweet prince charming says that I "don't get it" and that "it isn't that easy to just choose to be happy, joyous, etc." But, I know it is. I chose to have it, just like every other happy person out there. It is very much a conscious decision, not circumstantial.

"I would be happy if only..." That is one of the worst things we can ever tell ourselves. Find the happiness where you are right now or you never will. I can promise you that. Been there. Done that. Have battle wounds to prove it.