So, on Saturday I told my trainer that I wanted to stop "messing around" and start body-building again. He actually seemed very excited about it. He quickly went back to his desk and re-wrote my plan to focus on upper body building and core strengthening. It was a fantastic workout and it felt amazing to hit the weights again. Yesterday I was a little sore and this morning O.M.G.!! I can barely move my arms.

We all went for a hike yesterday at the "green belt." We hiked in 3.5 miles, had a backpack lunch by the river, then returned back to the car. It was beautiful out and we had such a nice time. We were out for about 3.5 hours and we were all pretty stiff last night. So very nice...Just paying for it this morning. I hurt pretty much everywhere.

I've been thinking about things lately. I guess that you re-evaluate your life when you are 30-ish. I'll be 32 in May--a late bloomer??? Anyway, I've been having a really hard time getting back into the same mode I was in this time two years ago--losing weight like crazy and being the model CK-er (if there is such a thing-LOL).

I remember about 11 years ago (right before I got pregnant) that I was in the best shape of my life and had some pretty serious muscle going. I felt fantastic and I looked pretty good and I weighed about 250, if memory serves. I don't remember being a calorie counter. In fact, I was taking supplements to optimize the body building. Those are typically high in calories.

I love body building and I have my newly discovered love of runnning. My last medical check-up was just last month and all of the lab-work came back normal, no high blood pressure no risk of diabetes no cholesterol issues...so I've decided that I am going to enjoy myself, and just be mindful of the foods I put into my body. I will need to do that anyway, in order to run and body build. No worrying about calories and weigh-ins. Healthy and happy I will be without worrying about the rest. If I am destined to be 250 pounds the rest of my life, then okay. I have no problem with that. The mirror and my physician will decide my ideal weight for me, not some stupid, and very inaccurate, BMI table.

Cheers to my new resolve and more power to me. He he...

My crazy divorcing neighbor asked me if she could use my internet last week once he moves out. She won't be able to afford her own internet (or cable or phone). I told her that she could and gave her the SSID and password. She also mentioned that one of the main reasons she didn't want to do the house swap was because she didn't want him to move in to the house with his new woman. I don't know if she thinks there is one already, or if she is planning for the future, or if she forgot the part sbout US moving into the house and not him. Oy...This is too much for my sensible brain to comprehend. She has been backing away from me since she served him the papers so maybe I'll be blissfully unaware of what is going on in her mind and her life soon. I guess I have served my purpose for, or disappointed, her and she can move on...She can use my internet but that is where I stop enabling her. She is a puzzle to me and I get obsessive about solving puzzles, sometimes.